Its hard to not have a father figure in your life or have your biological father standing next to you holding your hand. I go around trying to find a boy to fill my heart because i have a huge hole in my heart missing that needs to be filled. i ask my self out loud: Where are you daddy when i need you? how come your not holding my hand? when will you call me? can you answer my questions?} But it hurts that my father had forgotten to tell me happy birthday on my birthday. But there is a little piece of me that still loves him. Every night i cry because there's a hole in heart and it's hard to fill it. I've found someone who can 'Gage Palmer' but he only filled the half of my hole that's in my heart, But that's between me and you not him so keep this a secret. When i was first born my father never believed that i was his, But its fine because i don't want to talk to him or hear from him. He says he's too "busy". Like i believe that. He in texas im in missouri. He has another daughter so now im not his baby girl anymore im not his angel im not first born im nothing to him. And i don't think he's anything to me, not even a father. He's known to be a stranger. You know whats funny how my "dad" want to tell me what to do or how to be in life when he's never here,ever. So i told my mother he have no right to do such thing. Because 1. He's in texas, 2. He has his own worry-abouts. I have a small portion of love for him not a lot but just a portion enough to call him dad not daddy or father or anything else. GOODBYE "DAD"!!!! He is the "best" father any girl could want. :/
