19. You

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I sit on top of a gravestone,

Humming merrily.

I hold a thorny rose as I sing,

Picking petals off as I swing

My legs back and forth,

My polka-dot stockings stark

Against the grim dead landscape of you.


Oh you, you, you

Little pathetic you.

I laugh manically as I remember you.


You were a master of lies,

Weaving your playground tricks between

The desks in that cold English classroom.

Tricks that made people gasp,

Go,

"No!"

Pity you for things that never happened.


When people grab my toy,

I intend to break theirs. My mother says

It's a terrible habit.

I shrug and giggle as I smash your doll head

Against the splattered easel.


You, you, you

Said it was all my fault!

"She started it," I point my finger at you.

There's nothing you can do.

I'm no master of lies. I don't tell nothing

But the truth.


You, you, you,

Went to some kind of doctor

Was diagnosed with some kind of illness

Don't look at me, you bitch.

Never would've started

If it weren't for you.


On that fateful day, I wore yellow

I don't even like the colour.

My mother places a bow on my head,

I reach for my new shiny doll,

Placed a thorny rose in its hair.


And now I pluck the petals off,

Singing, "You, you, you

"Little pathetic you,

"Who thought you could outsmart me

"With the lies you plant and the viciousness you hide poorly.

"You, you, you

"Thought I was being kind.

"Thought that I could be played

"Few people know, oh little lady,

"I can be mean when I want to be." 

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