I don't want to die...Dave Strider x Depressed!Suicidal!Reader

I don't want to die...

Yes, hello. I am putting a warning right here

THIS CONTAINS SADSTUCK! IF YOU ARE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH SAD SHIT PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS! THANK YOU!

Now for the trigger warnings!

Swearing, cutting, blood, attempts at suicide and abuse

Alright lets start!

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Your name is (y/n) and you are abused by your so called "parents". They would continuously beat you till you were black and blue. There was sometimes where they would pull out a sharp object and even puncture a vain or leave cuts all over your slim body. Despite loosing so much blood, you never died. You would loose so much blood, you would think that you would... but you didn't.

It would anger you till no end, why could you not die!? All you wanted was to die!

That was a few months ago, now you are at the ledge of a bridge, getting ready to jump. You didn't do it yet, you first sat down and pulled out your trusty pocket knife. Sliding it across your skin you flinched, watching as streams of blood ran down your arm. Your vision blurred as tears piled up, not giving you the chance to see the monstrosity before you.

You sniffed and added a few more, the blood drip dropping on the ground as it came out of the wounds.

'Why is life so cruel?'

You think to yourself, adding one more little line of red.

Standing up you put the knife back into your pocket before turning around to look at the river below the bridge. You took a deep breath before you heard yelling and frantic running.

Running towards you. You spun around, only to loose your balance and fall back. A ear piercing scream came out of your throat as you fell, only to be caught by the ankle.

You quickly went to look at the person who had decided to save you but immediately regretted it.

It was your long time crush, Dave Strider.

Tears once again brimmed your eyes, threatening to fall at any given moment. What shocked you was that he started pulling you up, not letting go until you where safely on the curb.

You looked up at him confused. Why would he do that? He wouldn't care if you died, right?

You where oh so very wrong. The Strider actually loved you, seeing you on that ledge broke him and without instinct he ran forward. He was so glad that he had caught you. He didn't want to loose you.

"What the fuck were you doing (y/n)!? You could have gotten yourself killed!" He yelled.

You didn't like the tone of his voice, you probably bothered him. Cringing slightly you responded with a lousy, "Because."

He didn't seem to like that answer because he started yelling at you again, saying how dangerous it was to do that.

You listened to every single fucking word that spilled out of his god damned lips, tearing you apart on the inside.

"Because no one would fucking care if I died you asshole!" You began, tears now streaming down your flushed cheeks. "My parents would be so glad if I just finished this shit! If I just jumped but no! You had to come ruin every fucking thing! Life would have been better if I was never born so I'm trying to fix that! Killing myself is the easiest way to end this fucking nightmare! Do you fucking understand!?" You yelled. Everything you said was true, you could admit that.

"This is for the better, this will help other people but-" You chocked on a sob, "I d-don't want to f-fucking die!" You shouted, falling to your knees in a sobbing ball of sorrow.

He felt pity and regret searing through him. He didn't want to see you cry, he didn't want to see you so weak. He missed the strong girl that would take no shit, the girl he fell in love with.

She might be there right in front of him but she wasn't... strong anymore. If someone placed a single finger on her, she would break.

He didn't want to see her like this. He wanted her to be happy.

Moving forward he embraced her, rubbing her back as she continued to sob

"Please don't... don't do this (y/n)... I love you and it would break me if you died." He said softly in her ear, watching as she tensed up before throwing herself on him.

"I-I love you too!" She yelled into his chest as she continued crying.

A soft smile worked its way onto his lips. Kissing her forehead he whispered in her ear, "I promise that you will never feel this way again" And never again she did.

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