Demons

Intro

I feel uneasy

I feel a little scared

I see the danger

Of being unprepared

I try to hide it

Before I make a mistake

Because if the truth came out

It would be too late...

I can't scream

Can't even speak

For I know they will consider me weak

And I mustn't be weak

I must be strong

When confronting my demons head on

-You see-

Control is what I forever seek.

Even though I feel my anxiety

Starting to leak

But I cant give in.

I cant give in!

For breaking down

Is worse than any evil sin,

But they wont stop

They never will.

My demons live within

...

And they aim to kill.

...

I notice my hands starting to sweat

When I suddenly realize

That I'm trapped in my own

Unhealthy mindset

Held back by all the secrets

and all the lies

That I, myself have kept inside

Hidden by my false smile

And selfish ways

If only people knew...

It was just a matter of days.

Because for me tragedy

Seems to Fall on me faster

Than gravity

Its built up this demonic wall

That suffocates and surrounds me

With these toxic thoughts that may seem so small

But they control me

Like I'm their own personal, emotionless doll.

These thoughts tell me

That I'm running out of luck

And I fear its almost time

To painfully self destruct.

...

Here its comes

I pick up the knife

this kind of internal war

I know threatens my life

But I can't move..

As I watch the blood

Start to pour

I am shook right down

To my very core

But at the same time

I cant move!

Cant even scream out

I'm starting to fade

That is no doubt

Last thing I see is the blood on my blade

And I know that this time

I cannot be saved.