Broken And Shattered (A Niall Horan FanFic) UNDER REVISION

Chapter 1

AN: HEY GUYS! So yeah, here's the official Chapter 1 of B&S. Hope you guys will like my amateur-ish shot at writing a fanfic. Tenks. :)

Around 2 years ago, July 24 2010

"Come on Maddy! Mrs. Penelope is leaving! At least say good bye to her!" Fred pleaded.

My heart tightened at his words. It was happening. Mrs. Penelope was leaving, for good. I covered my ears and my eyes and tried to ignore his voice. It would hurt too much to say good bye. It would remind me that I had yet again let someone I love slip through my fingers. It would remind me that I was alone.

My eyes opened abruptly as I let those three words sink into my brain.

I was alone.

My eyes start to water as the events of that day started to go through my mind. Rosa's limp body was in my arms, as her blood started to trickle from her wound. Her shallow breath against my skin, her ever present smile weakening. Her voice so hoarse, it was almost impossible to make up what she said. But I remember clearly, and they still haunt me to this day.

I forgive you. I know you didn't mean it.

I didn't even have time to respond when she gave me her last smile and died in my arms. I hadn't stopped hating myself ever since. If I hadn't done what I did, she wouldn't have died. I've blamed myself over and over, even though Fred assured me it wasn't my fault. I knew he believed it was truly my fault, he was only comforting me to preserve whatever was left of our friendship. I had never felt so alone on that day. I've lost 2 people already, and I was about to lose another.

I hadn't noticed I was crying until a smooth warm hand wiped my cheeks. I looked up to see Mrs. Penelope's sad face looking at me. She smiled sadly and hugged me tightly. I was going to miss her hugs the most, she always knew what kind of hugs to give. The thought of her leaving caused me to cry again.

"Don't cry, child. I won't really leave you." she whispered.

My puffy eyes looked up at her in bewilderment. "You aren't leaving me?"

Her gray eyes looked into my pale hazel eyes. She smiled so warmly, I almost believed it. She squeezed my hand before saying the last few words that have been etched into my mind forever.

People never truly leave you, we just have to leave at certain times. Our lives have been planned out before we were even born. Whatever happens must happen and we shouldn't try and change it. Don't worry, Maddy. When something bad happens to you, God makes sure something good comes in return.

And for a while, I actually believed her. I believed that it wasn't the end of the world. I just had to wait a little longer for my good luck to come. In the end, she was right. It did come. But it only stayed for a little while.

I was horribly depressed on that day. I wouldn't speak to anyone, I wouldn't look at anyone. I was stuck in my own little world, constantly reminding myself that I was alone. Maybe it was because I was so immersed in my universe, or maybe I was just not paying attention, but the next thing I knew, I was falling. I didn't try to do anything to stop myself from falling. I wanted to feel the pain. I wanted to forgot any of this happened. All I remember was a hand quickly grabbing my arm and pulling me up. It happened so fast, I didn't understand what was happening at the time. All I knew was that I felt safe and sound in his arms.

I hesitantly looked up to find the most beautiful pair of blue eyes staring down on me. He had slightly long blonde hair with brown strands as well. He was definitely older than me, maybe even older than Fred. He had a warm smile, but his eyes held worry as well.

"Are you alri?" he asked me.

I blinked in confusion. He had an Irish accent, which was weird considering I have never heard any other accent besides English and American accents. He was still looking at me worriedly when I realise I had been staring. Blushing slightly, I mumble a quiet "Yes." before he removed his hand from my arm. I was slightly disappointed that he took his hand away, already missing his warmth. I looked up at him and forced an apologetic smile.