Wings......

My good girl

My good girl

When I was twelve , a new girl came who stayed in our neighbourhood . At first she was fine but slowly she was getting on my nerves . It's not that she did anything bad or something . The problem was that she was just so........ Right . That too , Always !

As she was in the same class and school as me , we always stayed together . It wasn't my wish . My parents wanted me to behave like her , study like her , be sweet like her..... .. In short They wanted ME to be HER !

This girl soon became a part of my life . She was the first person whom I thought so much about .

Yeah , she was the first person whom I hated so passionately . I had an intense grudge against her but I tried not to express it .

As we grew up together and went to college she got the admission in the best college of the state and went away .And I got admission in a normal college . Though my parents weren't so happy about their good girl leaving , I was . Finally my life was starting to get normal . No one compared me with her anymore . I was happy .

Soon I didn't even remember that such a girl ever existed in my life . It was the third year of my college then . My mother came to me and said , " Do you remember that childhood friend of yours who had gone to the most prestigious college of the state " . "Yes " I nodded in confusion as to why all of a sudden my mother was talking about her . Did she do something again to make my now -much-better - without -her life miserable again ?? No this couldn't be !

"She was restigated from the college for taking drugs and now she came back home " said my mother breaking the trail of my thoughts .

"See , your Goog girl isn't so good " I said , each word dripping with venom . Somehow just this small sentence showed all the suppressed hatred that I had for her for years . And this , I dont know , made me feel like the worst person in this world . She was such a bright student and such such good impression on everyone . And the biggest thing , she was the most righteous person I had ever seen .

Something really wrong must have happened and I will find out what !

Finally when I gained a lot of courage , I went to her house . When I saw her , I was flabbergasted. She looked like her soul had left her body and she hadn't eaten for days . I could barely recognise her . She looked on the verge of dying .

When I asked her what happened for the hundredth time , tears ran down her expressionless face . Then she started mumbling a lot thing I couldn't understand . Some made sense , some did not and most were inaudiable . But in the end she said a line that summed up to everything ," It was all so beautiful and nice and the he left me and went..... "

I couldn't believe it . Someone who was so smart , so sensible and always made the right choice will have this fate .

She tried really hard to get over drugs and make her life back to normal . I did all possible help . But everything comes with a price . She started sulking , blaming her for everything . Even rehab and the best psychologists couldn't help .

It was just a matter of weeks when she couldn't take any of these things anymore and committed a suicide .....

There is always a casuality between being right or being me . But after the death if my good girl , I realised one thing, no matter you're being right or being yourself , all you have to do is to be strong enough to hold up yourself everytime you fall.

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This is for the first time I'm writing sad stories . Please share your views and vote .

This chapter is dedicated to Zubina . She quite amazing !!