DICE

how it all begain- well actually how it ended

Every thing was

Blurry

Bloody

Cold

But I wasn't dead yet

I stood up of the creaky bed and set down the razor that paints my skin red
This isn't working-i want to die-fast and swift

There's a building around here
Tall enough to kill          then it's decided
I ran as fast as a could through the blurry night
With bloody arms
And cold skin
I ran surprisingly fast considering its 2:28am I'm tired and wounded

Guess I'm excited to say goodbye to this polluted earth with people who are to naive to realise that society is rotting faster than a apple core in summer

Fuck
The buildings locked
Glad I know how to pick a lock
I pull out the small unwinded paper clip

Click

Done. I walk inside
No one's here-good
I go up the stairs to the roof
Empty
I look down at my self
Blood seeping through my clothes
If only I had cut deeper

I make my way over to the edge
Looking down everything's so small
The side walks small from up here
I remember walking home from pre- school one day
The day that it happened
I was 4 years old oblivious to how the world worked yet

A man
Came up behind me

Unknown man

Bad man

Its your fault

He picked me like I was a penny lying under the arcade game-
Easy steal but it's worth something
I was frozen in fear       no screaming       just a lot of tears
He brought me to his place and locked me up
I was hurt
Beat
Abused
Bloody

And it took them long enough to find me.
2 and  1/2 years i was there
Being
Hurt
Beat
Abused
Bloody

Guess nobody really would care about a 4 year old gone missing my mother saw me for the first time in awhile. She was nice for the first few months and then- she was mean. "Your father's dead because off you". He died from drug over dose  and somehow that's my fault.

I laughed

Standing at the top off this white building  laughing at my mothers false words
" WELL GOODBYE YOU ASSHOLES I HOPE YOU ALL BURN IN HELL ALONG WITH ME" I scream with a wicked smile painted on my pale face

Jump

Down

To the sidewalk

Of bad memories

Die with a smile on my face

Hitting hard

Cold pavement

DEAD
13 years old
Reason of death: suicide
Location: Florida United States of America
Female
5'2
97 pounds
Time of death: 2:36am

"My my ladies and gentlemen what a shame! She was only 13 and died of suicide! Well come on up kid and roll the dice of decision!"
I was standing in a crowd of people all staring at me cheering and clapping. I look around. There's a stage with bright neon lights. The lights spiral around creating a concert like feel to the place. The previous voice that announced my death was coming from the stage. The voice belonged to a man who looked about 20. Can't see him very well from here though. I began to walk to the stage of bright lights. They all cheered and paved a way in the crowd for me, patting me on the back. " good luck" some said. I reached the black 6 steps that lead to the stage. I walked up the steps to meet the man. On second thought he looks more like 17 maybe 18. Somewhat curly black hair that was styled to hide some of his forehead. Piercing blue eyes that looked like a Crystal oceans.
His skin is beautiful -lightly tanned with dimples that complement his smile.

He walked closer to me and leaned down a little. " hey there kiddo! I'm gonna give you this dice and your gonna role it to determine your next life! " he said as he ruffled my hair.
" I'm not a fucking kid so don't treat me like one. Where am i? " he frowned a little. "I'm afraid this place doesn't exactly have a location kid. But what's happening here that when people die they come here, role the dice of decision, and move on to there next live." He smiles at me " the higher the number the better your next life, the lower the number the worse your life is" .

He hands me a small dice,pats my head one last time. " You seem different that most, good luck kid" he stated with a wink and charming smile. I walk forward a bit and role the dice.

What
The
Fuck?

When it hit the floor it just

Shattered

I look behind me at the man only to see a confused expression. I'm guessing this isn't really supposed to happen.
He looked at the shattered fragments and then at my face.

And that was i remember of the dice. Now I'm a 13 year-old girl named clay crowsen. I was reborn i guess. Living in the busy city of New york. My life's not any better than my last, at least I think. I don't remember much from my last life but I know I had one. And I'm also pretty sure I wasn't supposed to remember rolling the decision dice. Anyways my mother is gone, never really knew her she could be dead for all I know. I live in a small rundown apartment with my father . All he could afford considering he's in major debt with people that you should steer away from. He might be able to pay them back if he didn't waste his money on alcohol and smokes. My Father Abused Me since i was young But i guess I'm Used To It By Now.

I hit my alarm clock turning off the obnoxious noise. 7:00am Monday Morning october 23 2017.

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Ill Be posting tomorrow or the Day After.
I Hope you Liked it! Next chapter Will Be Very exiting and funny ;)

November 27 2017