Idk why you're here
Idk what the fuck you want
I still qusestion what we did have
& Now I'm wondering if I'm missing something in my new relationship that I want to fly in the clouds.
No one is to blame . Just mere misunderstandings .
I'll admit I've been a coward locked in chains
Because I don't want to be just friends.
As I fell fast asleep, as the lager runs through my liver
& The taco pizza made my night a lil less bitter
Your body was an off brown
Like Reese's cups mixed in a bowl
Like a bronze color I've never seen before.
Idk who you were.
Maybe I saw a smile
I saw you first walking far away on the highway back to your old place.
locs flowing in the air like I do almost everyday .
I see you cared to stay at the party
You went upstairs with a group of faces I've never seen before.
As I walked through the door, I was waken up by my alarm .I tried to fall back to sleep to dive into your intamicy again .
Because what I gave before is gone now. Probably to someone else who can love you the way you want to be loved .
But does it hurt to have one last kiss or a long hug?
I walked away that last time that day from your new apartment when you gave me the last pieces of memories of me being there almost a year .
Yes I fell into lust & I was very imature .
But who's not at a young age
But I didn't expect my heart to break like an earthquake .
So I dream of lakes. Oceans. Two fish.
And I hope she dreams of winds. Air. Breath. Golden scales.
I can't bail on the flaws that I can change with my new girl .
There's parts of you I sometimes see in her
Which scares me like a curse.
But my new girl is a blessing . Waves of creativity .
I can't make you love me anymore
So please just let us be as we challenge the forthcomings of or growing beings.
I will never erase you out of my life because a healed scar is a lessoned learned .
After many suns & moons of breakdowns , I had to put my love first.
