Sad Girls Club (Poems)

Body

we lay with body on body.
the feeling i would hope would last forever.
chest on chest, heart to heart.
the feeling was irreplaceable,
it felt like a few short minutes but lasted for hours.
i fell more in love as every second went by.
as he fills me with his loving words
and caringful kisses.
his hand slides down my side and stomach ,
into my pants.
i felt nervous but so pleased,
we continued doing
what'd we had not planned.
days went on and on and
i felt more and more upset...
maybe it was being i had gotten
no call or not one thing
said to me since i gave him my heart.
i had given him something
i could never get back.
my heart, my virginity
, and my soul.
i felt betrayed.
months had passed and
still no call, text or visit.
i had realized something wasn't right.
i missed my period for 4 months
, i had been gaining weight.
my stomach ached as i thought
of all the possibilities.
i had thought of all the lies my
child's father had once told me.
i was depressed and upset.
i couldn't bare to live.
my love of my life destroyed
all the passion i had within me.
i had now realized ,
life isn't about feeling that
irresistible lifestyle.
it's about love.