ALONE

Her.

I see you admire her.
everyday.
every hour.
every minute.
you cant keep your eyes off her.
you sit by her everyday.
I learn you like her.

sad.
sad.
sad.

I ignored you for the longest time.
when im not looking you sneak a peak at me with sad eyes.
I'm not sure what you want.

we still haven't talked.
I find a boy.
use him as a distraction, which sucks because he is one of my best friends.
I feel worse.

breath I tell myself, but for some reason the air feels like smoke.
my lungs are burning and I drown myself in water just to feel normal again.
I end up hurt and broken.
no amount of glue can fix my fragile parts.

I am alone again.
for the longest time.
I am scared.
maybe this is forever.