You Should Know...

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Sorry this is sortav a rant... but no one is willing to listen.

I don't even know

what’s wrong, is a question i get all the time.

nothing, i pretty much have everything a girl could want

but the constant question is why am i still sad

why can’t a go through a day without a single thought of sadness

or be numb to what others say around me

because i really shouldn’t care?

it’s okay.

that’s probably the most annoying thing to hear.

to be quite frank, i want things to get better now.

i want to know why i’m not sleeping at night

or why i can’t go through the day without thinking that

you prefer her to me because 

i always see you laughing with her,

taking care of her problems,

trying to fix her. 

Hell ya i’m jealous, but i think i have every right to be.

But because i love you i let it go and i trust you more than ever.

i guess i just want someone to help me figure me out,

because i’m having a really hard time doing it myself.

I just want to be happy for one whole day.

Go to sleep without a problem.

Talk to people like i actually fit in.

I don’t even know what i’m doing anymore.

I don’t know if it’s an act.

i honestly just don’t get how you could so easily cut people off

but they still give their everything for you.

I can count the amount of people who would do that for me in one hand

How they practically stopped their lives

because you lost a piece in your path.

To be honest, 

I don’t even know the things I know anymore.