Warning:-
-mentions of suicide.
-read on your own risk.
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The sound of your shoe padded against the hard pavement below you echo into your ears while your hands make their way deeper into the pocket of your hoodie.It doesn't help much but better than letting your hands freeze by the winter air.
You couldn't shake the tingly feelings of excitement when yoongi texted you days before, saying that his tour had ended and he will came home soon.A smile soon crept over your lips at the times you could spend with him.
You skidded up the stairs over your apartment and fish out your keys to unlock the door but soon finding it slightly ajar as someone had make their way in sooner than you.
"Maybe he's just tired and forget to close the door properly..."you muttered to yourself before pushing the door fully."I'm home!"you half yelled while kicking the door shut behind you,locking it in progress.Uneasy feelings started to pile up inside of you when you see the living room was completely trashed up.
Numerous numbers of papers were tossed on every inch of the room.The telly was left on,a hard stench of alcohol filled up your nose while you silently cringe at the odd smell.
All your life you know that yoongi would never ever took a lot of alcohol to get himself high.Unless he'd been through another episode of those 'bad days'.That's when realization hits you like a truck.
Oh my goodness..
"Yoongi!?"you were now full on having a panic attack while searching through every inch of your apartment for your boyfriend who hadn't appeared ever since you take a step inside the house.From the kitchen to the study room and to both of your shared room,no signs of him could be detected making an instant bad feeling started to grew inside of you.
Tears blurred your vision as you remember how yoongi used to suffered with different types of mental issue.He used to spoke about how close he was to ending his life making a hoarse sob escape through your lips.
He couldn't.
He wouldn't.
I already promise.
He'd already promise.
Right then, you stop over the main bathroom door, seeing a hint of light shone from the little space under the door."min yoongi!"you cried while banging your fist on the door when you found out it was lock from the other side.
Without hesitation on anything,you broke open the door using your full strenght before your whole life came crashing down on your feet.
There he was,laid slump over the hard tiles holding an empty prescription bottle in one of his hands.
"No no no yoongi! Yoongi please"you cried, falling on your knees before him.His eyes opens and closes,skins is pales until you could see string's of veins bulging out under his skin.
"Please w-wake up baby please!"you sob even louder while helping him to sat up and slump near the bathroom wall.You cradle his pale face with both of your hands and sees fresh tears making their way down his cheeks.
"Sor...ry..."he choke before weakly reaching out to your hands,holding it firmly as he can."Don't be.You'll b-be fine yeah? I'll call-"you stammered before he shook his head side to side."don't-"
You took out your phone from your pocket and speed dial the emergency number before a voice of a concern woman filled your ear.
"911 what's your emergency?"
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// y o o n g i//
His eyes slowly flickered open,only to be blinded by a bright light that shine directly over his his eyes.The constant sound of 'beeping' make him grew annoyed over each second before he gaze down over both of his pale arms that has wires connected to it.
The event from last night reappeared on loop inside his brain making him feel a lot worse than he is right in the moment.Is it even last night?He couldn't recalled at how much time has passed from the moment he saw flash of red and blue from his view and him being carried away onto a stretcher.
Fucking hell.
His eyes then wander around the room before a single sigh escape his lips again.
"Not in this damn place again"he muttered before putting his whole attention over the blank white ceiling of the crappy hospital.Thoughts squeezes itselves into his brain making a slight headache spread over his whole scalp.
He groan with his eyes squeezes shut in hoping he could endure the pain away while massaging his temples.He sat up and lean against the pillow behind him for support.The sound of a door opens and closes caught his attentions as he turn his head to the source of where the noise came from.
He see his girlfriend standing there in an utter shock.
The plastic bag she was holding fell to the floor with a slight clunk before she slowly make her way near him,tears clouding her eyes."yoongi?"
// back to you //
You couldn't swallow the fact that yoongi has awake after the doctor said that he had a little chance to woke up since he had down those pills in a giant quantity than he should.The rest of those three days had been torturing since you could do nothing but to watch your boyfriend knock out cold on the bed looking rather pale than the last time you found him in the bathroom.
Even the rest of the member couldn't contain the sadness when they heard about one of their bestfriend had been send into a hospital again.You and the rest of them take turns in watching over yoongi, incase he had ever woke up from his deep slumber.
"Hello...y/n"he weakly muttered sending you a convincing smile.
"b-bastard"you muttered before pulling his figure into a hug.
That's when you loose it.
Tears nonchalantly sped down your face when you feel both of his arms wrap around your waist, his head buried on the either side of your neck taking in your comforting present.
"I thought I'm gonna lose you for a second"you sob while your hold againts him tighten,afraid he gonna slipped and leave you again.
"I'm sorry...It was just a lot for me to-"
"Don't be sorry.All that matters are that you're here with me.Safe and breathing"you chortle on another sob over the last part.
Yoongi's eyes began to tear up at how much she cared about him.There's someone who still cared about him in this world.He's just to selfish to realize at how someone were afraid on loosing him.
"Don't worry...I'm not going anywhere anymore"he said before you could feel your shirt stained with tears while his arms secured safely around you.
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