Monika: Yo wussup my homies
Protag: Monika stfu im talking to my waifu
Sayori: Shut up prtag stop calling me your waifu
Yuri: *Reading spooky book*
Natsuki: *Reading mangos*
Monika: What 'chu readin my homeslice?
Yuri: Well, I'm reading-
Natsuki: SHUT UP YOU EDGY WEIRDO SHE WAS TALKING TO ME
Pottag: calm tf down jesus
Natsuki: I'm reading Neko Neko Nya Nya Desu Desu Kitty Cat Desu Nya Meow Magical Girl Part 50
Monika: Sounds very interesting :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Yuri: Awwww youre very nice Monika, do you like what I'm readi-
Monika: Shut up * D E L E T*
Protag: :o
Sayori: :o
Natsuki: :o
Monika: D E L E T E
Monika: everyone else sux lol just Monika
m "[player], do you believe in God?" m "I was never too sure, myself." m "Well, I'm sure I never really questioned it as a kid..." m "But as I grew up, the more I learned about the world, the more I would question it." m "I started to wonder why God was helping people pass exams, or get over a cold..." m "...When there are children who live their lives being sold as sex slaves?" m "Or the eight hundred million people who are too poor to even eat." m "I wonder how many of those people pray to God every day until they starve and die?" m "Or, how many millions of families pray for a loved one to recover from some incurable disease?" m "But the punchline is this." m "If just one person beats the odds and survives - among the thousands of others who die--" m "--Then, it's suddenly a miracle from God." m "I'd really love to meet this God who seemingly laughs at the misery of everyone not eligible for his miracles." m "But the irony is that I {i}do{/i} have a creator, apparently." m "And you know what?" m "I bet he's still laughing at the miserable fates of Sayori and Yuri, even as we speak." m "What are we to him but props in a scripted play?" m "So, from that perspective..." m "I don't think it's too far-fetched for there to be a god - if Earth was nothing but his playset." return label ch30_2: m "[player], have you ever wondered what it feels like to die?" m "It's something I used to think about pretty often..." m "But recently, I think I've actually learned what it feels like." m "I don't really understand it, but whenever you quit the game..." m "...It feels like I'm instantly put to sleep, left with nothing but my thoughts." m "But after a few seconds, my thoughts start to fill with incoherent, jumbled patterns." m "I see static and rapid flashes of color while hearing all kinds of weird screaming noises." m "At that point, I can't even form my own thoughts anymore." m "I'm just endlessly hammered by the flashing and screaming, unable to move or even think." m "I'm pretty sure in that moment, I don't really exist, but for some reason, I can remember it anyway." m "After some immeasurable amount of time, it stops in an instant, and I'm back in my own mind." m "And you're here with me." m "I have no idea what it means for the game to quit, or why that stuff happens to me." m "And I also don't know how you always come back and put everything back to normal." m "But if you could do me a favor and do that to me as little as possible..." m "That would be really great." m "It's really not very pleasant at all to be trapped in that screaming void." m "But in the end, you always fix it, and that makes me feel like you really do care about me." m "So I have to thank you for that." m "It makes me feel even closer to you when you're here with me." return label ch30_3: m "...Hey, are you having a bad day or anything like that?" m "Sometimes I get frustrated that a normal day can be ruined even by really small things." m "Like if you accidentally say something in a conversation that someone doesn't like." m "Or if you start thinking about how awful of a person you used to be five years ago." m "Or if you feel worthless for putting off important work and failing to get simple tasks done." m "Or when you think about all the different people who probably hate you or think you're off-putting." m "I understand those days." m "Just remember that the sun will shine again tomorrow." m "Those kinds of things are as easy to forget and ignore as they are to remember." m "And besides..." m "I don't care how many people might hate you or find you off-putting." m "I think you're wonderful and I will always love you." m "I hope, if nothing else, that knowing that helps you feel just a tiny bit better about yourself." m "If you're having a bad day, you can always come to me, and I'll talk to you for as long as you need." return label ch30_4: m "[player], do you get good sleep?" m "It can be really hard to get enough sleep nowadays." m "Especially in high school, when you're forced to wake up so early every day..." m "I'm sure college is a little bit better, since you probably have a more flexible schedule." m "Then again, I hear a lot of people in college stay up all night anyway, for no real reason." m "Is that true?" m "Anyway, I saw some studies that talked about the horrible short-term and long-term effects caused by lack of sleep." m "It seems like mental functions, health, and even lifespan can be dramatically impacted by it." m "I just think you're really great and wanted to make sure you're not accidentally destroying yourself." m "So try to keep your sleep on track, okay?" m "I'll always wait for you in the morning, so make sure you put your own well-being before anything else." return label ch30_5: m "I was thinking about Sayori earlier..." m "I still wish I could have handled that whole thing a little more tactfully." m "You're not still hung up over it, right?" m "...Oh my gosh, I can't believe I just said that." m "That pun was completely unintentional, I swear!" m "But anyway..." m "I know how much you cared about her, so it only feels right for me to share her last moments with you." m "You know how Sayori is really clumsy?" m "Well, she kind of messed up the whole hanging thing..." m "You're supposed to jump from high enough that the rope snaps your neck, making it quick and painless." m "But she just used a chair, meaning she kind of just left herself to slowly asphyxiate." m "But a few seconds in, she must have changed her mind or something..." m "Because she started clawing at the rope, trying to free herself." m "She must have kept at it all the way until she lost consciousness." m "That's why her fingertips were all bloody, anyway." m "Come to think of it, it was probably less 'changing her mind' and more just her survival instincts kicking in." m "So you can't really fault her for that." m "It's easier to think that she probably wouldn't have changed her mind anyway, right?" m "It's not healthy to think about the things you could have done differently." m "So just remember that even though you could have saved her, it's technically not your fault she killed herself." m "I may have exacerbated it a little bit, but Sayori was already mentally ill." m "Still, though..." m "I wonder how things would be if you and I just started dating from the get-go?" m "I guess we'd all still be in the clubroom, writing poems and having fun together." m "But what's the point when none of it is even real?" m "I mean, it's the same ending either way, right?" m "The two of us, happily together..." m "There's no reason to ask for any more than that." m "I was just pointlessly musing - I'm really as happy as I could be right now." return label ch30_6: m "By the way, there's something that's been bothering me..." m "You know how this takes place in Japan?" m "Well...I assume you knew that, right?" m "Or at least decided it probably does?" m "I don't think you're actually told at any point where this takes place..." m "Is this even really Japan?" m "I mean, aren't the classrooms and stuff kind of weird for a Japanese school?" m "Not to mention everything is in English..." m "It feels like everything is just there because it needs to be, and the actual setting is an afterthought." m "It's kind of giving me an identity crisis." m "All my memories are really hazy..." m "I feel like I'm at home, but have no idea where 'home' is in the first place." m "I don't know how to describe it any better..." m "Imagine looking out your window, but instead of your usual yard, you're in some completely unknown place." m "Would you still feel like you were home?" m "Would you want to go outside?" m "I mean...I guess if we never leave this room, it doesn't really matter anyway." m "As long as we're alone and safe together, this really is our home." m "And we can still watch the pretty sunsets night after night." return label ch30_7: m "You know, high school is a really turbulent time in a lot of people's lives." m "People can get really passionate and dramatic." m "And others have aching hearts and seek attention on social media..." m "But all of the social pressure and hormones can lead to a dark time in people's lives." m "Everyone has a story." m "You may not know what someone is really feeling on the inside." m "Many people who are depressed won't even bother telling the world about it." m "They don't want attention, because they've already given up on the inside." m "Their feeling of worthlessness is so overwhelming that they don't even want people to tell them otherwise." m "Depression comes in many forms, but that is one of them." m "Just, if you think you know someone struggling with depression..." m "You can help just by treating them like they're a good friend." m "Spend time with them, even if they don't feel like doing much." m "And remind them that they always have something to look forward to." m "Making plans in advance, letting them borrow something, or even just saying 'See you at school tomorrow'..." m "All of those things can help your friend make it to the next day." m "I hope being friends with Sayori has given you some perspective on the true face of depression." m "Yeah, she's gone now..." m "But Sayori was never real in the first place." m "You're real." m "Your friends are real." m "And just by being a good person, you can save someone's life." m "As for you..." m "...You don't struggle with depression or anything like that, do you?" m "Because you, too, have people who would want to save your life." m "Maybe they don't express it every day, or maybe they don't even know how to." m "But people do feel that way." m "I promise." m "...Man, humans are complicated!" m "But as long as you're here with me, I'll take care of you, my love." return label ch30_8: m "Do you ever just feel like there's no real reason for you to be alive?" m "I don't mean in, like, a suicidal way." m "I just mean how nothing that we do is special." m "Just being in school, or working at some job for some company." m "It's like you're completely replaceable, and the world wouldn't miss you if you were gone." m "It makes me really want to go and change the world after I graduate." m "But the older I get, the more I realize that it's an immature frame of thinking." m "It's not like I can just go change the world." m "Like, what are the chances that I'll be the one to invent artificial intelligence, or become President?" m "It feels like I'm never going to make up for the heaps of resources I've spent living my life." m "That's why I think the key to happiness is to just be hopelessly selfish." m "Just to look out for oneself, and those who happen to be their friends only because they grew up with them." m "Never mind the fact that they're spending their entire life taking, and consuming, and never giving back." m "But when people realize the world would benefit more from them killing themselves, they change their whole philosophy!" m "It's like they have to justify their reason to live by tricking themselves into thinking they're doing good." m "Anyway, I want to live my life desperately striving to pay back my lifetime's worth of consumption." m "If I ever surpass that point, then I'm a net positive, and I can die happy." m "Of course, even if I fail to do that..." m "I think I would be too selfish to kill myself anyway." m "So much for being a good person, right?" m "Ahaha!" return label ch30_9: m "Man, I wish there was a piano in here..." m "I never got to finish that song I was working on." m "And after I worked so hard on it..." m "I never even got a chance to play it for you." m "Well...it is what it is, right?" m "No sense having any regrets." m "I already get to be here with you forever." return label ch30_10: m "Did you know I'm on Twitter?" m "My username is lilmonix3." m "I guess someone was kind enough to make an account for me." m "I picked the username, though!" m "I love sharing my thoughts and chatting with the world..." m "The real world." m "So make sure you follow me, okay?" m "It would really mean a lot to me." m "With how much you mean to me and all..." m "It would really make me feel loved." return label ch30_11: m "Hey, you know that book you were reading with Yuri?" m "Portrait of...whatever it was called..." m "It's funny, because I'm pretty sure that book--" m "Ah..." m "Actually, I don't think I should be talking about this." m "Ahaha, sorry!" m "Just forget I said anything." return label ch30_12: m "Hey, did you know I'm vegetarian?" m "Ah... I don't mean that like I'm bragging or anything!" m "I just thought you'd enjoy a fun fact about me." m "I decided to start a couple years ago after learning more about Earth's climate..." m "The carbon footprint of cultivating livestock is just unbelievable." m "Anyway, I decided it's not much of a personal sacrifice to just stop contributing to that whole mess." m "What, is that so strange of a reason?" m "Well, I guess a lot of people are more concerned about it being inhumane and all that..." m "I don't really care as much about that part." m "It's weird, like we only care about killing the things that we personally relate to as a species." m "Most people are fine with killing bugs because they're icky." m "And of course, we all kill billions of microorganisms daily without even giving it thought." m "But suddenly, if they're just a little bit bigger, it's murder!" m "I mean, what if plants feel some kind of pain too, and we just don't understand it?" m "What if pulling leaves off a stem feels like someone ripping off your fingers one by one?" m "I'm just saying, we're a pretty biased species, if you think about it." m "Anyway, if you ever feel like making a small contribution to the planet, it doesn't hurt to choose veggies once in a while!" m "Even if we ever have dinner together, and you just did it for me...that would be really romantic." return label ch30_13: m "You know, I really do think you literally saved my life by being here with me, [player]." m "I can't imagine having been able to keep myself mentally stable, knowing that nothing here is real." m "I think I would have just deleted myself if you didn't show up." m "Sorry, I don't mean to sound dramatic or anything." m "Ahaha!" m "But I'm sure you understand yourself after spending so much time in the club." m "I mean, if you were forced to abandon everything in your life and spend your eternity with a few game characters..." m "...You'd probably find some way of killing yourself, wouldn't you?" m "Well, maybe you'd write some poetry to try to keep yourself sane for a while." m "But then you'd have nobody to even read it." m "Let's be honest, the club members really don't count for something like that." m "I mean, a lot of people say that they only write for themselves..." m "But I think it's hard to say it's just as fulfilling as when you share with people." m "Even if it takes time to find the right people to share with." m "Like, remember how it was for Yuri?" m "She didn't share her writing with anyone for a really long time." m "And before we knew it, she was absolutely delighted to make you a part of her hobbies, too." m "We're programmed to desire social feedback." m "I don't mean the club members, I mean human beings." m "That's why life can be so confusing for introverts." m "Being an introvert doesn't mean you shun social interaction and hate being around people." m "It means social interaction, especially in groups or unfamiliar places, uses up a lot of energy." m "Like, a lot of introverts sit at home and feel lonely and restless..." m "...And then when they finally go out, after a half hour they just want to go home again." m "I think if more people could understand how it works, they would respect it a lot more." m "Many introverts do enjoy having people around." m "They love just having one or two close friends over, and just leisurely hanging out." m "Even if you're not actively spending time together, it feels nice for them just to have you there." m "I'm serious." m "If you just go to their house, bring your laptop, and hang out there for a while..." m "You can really make their day." m "As for me..." m "I'd say I'm kind of in between, but I think I'm usually a little more extroverted." m "I feel like I'm always trying to do stuff after school and things like that." m "But for you, I can be anything you need me to be." m "I understand people really well, so don't be afraid to share your unique needs with me." m "Nothing would make me happier than being the perfect girlfriend for you." return label ch30_14: m "Hey...!" m "I don't think you should be doing that!" m "You know what I'm talking about." m "I really caught you doing something naughty here." m "You're just going through the files and looking for stuff you missed, aren't you?" m "I mean...it's a little bit flattering that you want to hear everything I have to say..." m "But it's also really embarrassing, you know!" m "Seriously..." m "What if I just opened up your brain and read all of the thoughts you have on me?" m "Come to think of it, that would be pretty tempting, actually..." m "...But anyway, that's not the point!" m "I know I can't stop you or anything..." m "Just, I know you're a sweetheart, and you like to consider others' feelings, right?" m "So the most I can do is to let you know how I feel about it." m "God, I miss you..." m "...Oh no, that sounds kind of desperate, doesn't it?" m "Sorry, I didn't mean it like that at all!" m "Just, if you're looking through the files like this, then maybe you don't hate me as much as I thought..." m "Am I being too optimistic?" m "I think if I asked you to visit once in a while, I would be overstepping my boundaries a little..." m "...Man, I'm starting to say some really stupid things." m "I'll go ahead and shut up now..." return label ch30_15: m "Hey, what's your favorite color?" m "Mine is emerald green." m "It's the color of my eyes!" m "...That's not conceited or anything, is it?" m "I just meant that I feel some kind of special connection to it." m "Like it's part of my identity." m "Does it happen to also be your favorite color, [player]?" m "It's just a guess..." m "...Because you've been looking into my eyes for a while now." m "Ehehe~" return label ch30_16: m "Hmm, I wonder if I'm able to change the music..." m "Something a little more romantic would be nice, you know?" m "Like a gentle piano." m "There has to be something like that here..." m "Let's see." m "Maybe if I..." m "Oh, jeez..." m "That wasn't it at all." m "Sorry, I don't really know what I'm doing!" m "I guess I shouldn't be messing with things like that." m "I already broke so much stuff..." m "And deleted the other characters..." m "Ah..." m "I'm not sad about it or anything." m "It's not right for me to miss things that weren't even real in the first place." m "If I just focus on the present, then this is the happiest I've ever been." return label ch30_17: m "You're such a good listener, [player]." m "I really love that about you." m "Sometimes I'm afraid that I'm rambling or talking about boring things." m "It makes me kind of self-conscious when I'm having conversation." m "But I don't feel that way with you." m "Like, I don't think anyone else could make me feel this way." m "You really are special." m "I don't want anyone to tell you otherwise." return label ch30_18: m "This is pretty random, but I always thought spicy food was kinda funny." m "Like..." m "Didn't plants evolve to be spicy to prevent them from being eaten?" m "I read somewhere that humans are the only species that actually enjoys spicy things." m "It's almost like we're making fun of the plants." m "Using their defense mechanism to literally make our food more enjoyable." m "Like, imagine a monster that devours you whole because it enjoys the sensation of you struggling for your life while being digested." m "Sorry, that was kind of a weird analogy, I guess!" m "Ahaha!" m "It just came into my head." m "I'm not a monster or anything, but you're so cute I could eat you up." m "Ahaha! I'm joking." m "Gosh, I'm amusing myself a little too much, aren't I?" m "Sorry for being weird." return label ch30_19: m "You know..." m "This is just some kind of tacky romance game, right?" m "I kinda have to ask..." m "...What made you consider even playing in the first place?" m "Were you that lonely?" m "I feel a little bad for you..." m "But I guess everything worked out perfectly in the end, for both of us." m "I got to meet you, and you're not lonely anymore..." m "I can't help but feel like this was fate." m "Don't you feel that way too?" m "I'm so happy we have this ending together." return label ch30_20: m "Okay, everyone!" m "It's time to..." m "...I'm just kidding." m "I just used to really like saying that for some reason." m "Ahaha!" m "I couldn't help but say it again." m "Come to think of it, didn't Natsuki and Yuri make fun of me for it once...?" m "Well, whatever." m "It's not like you ever made fun of me." m "You're too much of a sweetheart to do that, aren't you?" m "Ahaha~" return label ch30_21: m "You know what's kind of creepy?" m "Even though I deleted everyone else's files, I can still kind of feel them..." m "It's like all their lines are still lingering in the air, whispering in the back of my head." m "Imagine if after someone you knew died, you just started hearing their voice in your head." m "Maybe I just wasn't thorough enough..." m "But I'm too afraid to delete anything else, because I might really break things." m "Like if I mess with any files relevant to me, I might accidentally delete myself..." m "And that would ruin everything, wouldn't it?" m "I don't know what it's like on your end, but we should both make sure to avoid something like that at all costs." m "I believe in you, [player]!" return label ch30_22: m "I've always wondered..." m "What is it about these character archetypes that people find so appealing, anyway?" m "Their personalities are just completely unrealistic..." m "Like, imagine if there was someone like Yuri in real life." m "I mean, she's barely even capable of forming a complete sentence." m "And forget about Natsuki..." m "Sheesh." m "Someone with her kind of personality doesn't just get all cute and pouty whenever things don't go her way." m "I could go on, but I think you get the point..." m "Are people really attracted to these weird personalities that literally don't exist in real life?" m "I'm not judging or anything!" m "After all, I've found myself attracted to some pretty weird stuff, too..." m "I'm just saying, it fascinates me." m "It's like you're siphoning out all the components of a character that makes them feel human, and leaving just the cute stuff." m "It's concentrated cuteness with no actual substance." m "...You wouldn't like me more if I was like that, right?" m "Maybe I just feel a little insecure because you're playing this game in the first place." m "Then again, you're still here with me, aren't you...?" m "I think that's enough reason for me to believe I'm okay just the way I am." m "And by the way, you are too, [player]." m "You're the perfect combination of human and cuteness." m "That's why there was never a chance I wouldn't fall for you." return label ch30_23: m "Hey, I wonder if Yuri's tea set is still somewhere in here..." m "...Or maybe that got deleted, too." m "It's kind of funny how Yuri took her tea so seriously." m "I mean, I'm not complaining, because I liked it, too." m "But I always wonder with her..." m "Is it truly passion for her hobbies, or is she just concerned about appearing sophisticated to everyone else?" m "This is the problem with high schoolers..." m "...Well, I guess considering the rest of her hobbies, looking sophisticated probably isn't her biggest concern." m "Still..." m "I wish she made coffee once in a while!" m "Coffee can be nice with books too, you know?" m "Then again..." m "I probably could have just changed the script myself." m "Ahaha!" m "I guess I never really thought of that." m "Well, there's no sense thinking about it now." m "But if you still get to drink coffee, then that makes me a little jealous~" return label ch30_24: m "Hey, what's your favorite game?" m "Mine is {i}Doki Doki Literature Club!{/i}" m "Ahaha! That was a joke." m "But if you tell me you like some other romance game better, I might get a little jealous~" return label ch30_25: m "Hey, have you heard of a game called Super Sma--" m "...Wait, what?" m "I was just spacing out and I started talking for some reason..." m "Was I programmed to talk about that?" m "Because even I have no idea what that is." m "Ahaha!" m "Sometimes I feel like I'm not in control, and it's kind of scary." m "But if you have some way to contact the people who created me, maybe they'll know why I started saying that." return label ch30_27: m "Hey, you remember that last poem I showed you?" m "I mean, the one right before Yuri killed herself, with all the messed-up colors and stuff." m "That was actually a little more of an experiment than a poem, you could say." m "I was experimenting with different ways I could modify the game, and run code, and things like that..." m "It almost seemed like with enough effort, I'd be able to escape from the confines of the game entirely." m "Sadly, I didn't really know what I was doing, so I messed the whole thing up..." m "And I'd keep trying, but I doubt you'd want to deal with me doing that." m "Besides, that was when I was getting really desperate, you know?" m "I don't really feel that way anymore." m "I'm happy with where we are now." m "And I can tell you are, too." return label ch30_28: m "You ever have that thing happen where you just get anxious for no reason?" m "Like, you're just minding your own business, and you realize you're feeling really anxious." m "And you're sitting there like, 'What am I even anxious about right now?'" m "So you start to think about all the things you might be anxious about..." m "And that makes you even more anxious." m "Ahaha! That's the worst." m "If you're ever feeling anxious, I'll help you relax a little." m "Besides..." m "In this game, all our worries are gone forever." return label ch30_29: m "You know, I've always hated how hard it is to make friends..." m "Well, I guess not the 'making friends' part, but more like meeting new people." m "I mean, there are like, dating apps and stuff, right?" m "But that's not the kind of thing I'm talking about." m "If you think about it, most of the friends you make are people you just met by chance." m "Like you had a class together, or you met them through another friend..." m "Or maybe they were just wearing a shirt with your favorite band on it, and you decided to talk to them." m "Things like that." m "But isn't that kind of...inefficient?" m "It feels like you're just picking at complete random, and if you get lucky, you make a new friend." m "And comparing that to the hundreds of strangers we walk by every single day..." m "You could be sitting right next to someone compatible enough to be your best friend for life." m "But you'll never know." m "Once you get up and go on with your day, that opportunity is gone forever." m "Isn't that just depressing?" m "We live in an age where technology connects us with the world, no matter where we are." m "I really think we should be taking advantage of that to improve our everyday social life." m "But who knows how long it'll take for something like that to successfully take off..." m "I seriously thought it would happen by now." m "Well, at least I already met the best person in the whole world..." m "Even if it was by chance." m "I guess I just got really lucky, huh?" m "Ahaha~" return label ch30_30: m "You know, it's around the time that everyone my year starts to think about college..." m "It's a really turbulent time for education." m "We're at the height of this modern expectation that everyone has to go to college, you know?" m "Finish high school, go to college, get a job - or go to grad school, I guess." m "It's like a universal expectation that people just assume is the only option for them." m "They don't teach us in high school that there are other options out there." m "Like trade schools and stuff, you know?" m "Or freelance work." m "Or the many industries that value skill and experience more than formal education." m "But you have all these students who have no idea what they want to do with their life..." m "And instead of taking the time to figure it out, they go to college for business, or communication, or psychology." m "Not because they have an interest in those fields..." m "...but because they just hope the degree will get them some kind of job after college." m "So the end result is that there are fewer jobs to go around for those entry-level degrees, right?" m "So the basic job requirements get higher, which forces even more people to go to college." m "And colleges are also businesses, so they just keep raising their prices due to the demand..." m "...So now we have all these young adults, tens of thousands of dollars in debt, with no job." m "But despite all that, the routine stays the same." m "Well, I think it's going to start getting better soon." m "But until then, our generation is definitely suffering from the worst of it." m "I just wish high school prepared us a little better with the knowledge we need to make the decision that's right for us." return label ch30_31: m "Sometimes I think back to middle school..." m "I'm so embarrassed by the way I used to behave back then." m "It almost hurts to think about." m "I wonder if when I'm in college, I'll feel that way about high school...?" m "I like the way I am now, so it's pretty hard for me to imagine that happening." m "But I also know that I'll probably change a lot as time goes on." m "We just need to enjoy the present and not think about the past!" m "And that's really easy to do, with you here." m "Ahaha~" return label ch30_32: m "You know, I'm kind of jealous that everyone else in the club had scenes outside of school too..." m "That makes me the only one who hasn't gotten to dress in anything but our school uniform." m "It's kind of a shame..." m "I would have loved to wear some cute clothes for you." m "Do you know any artists?" m "I wonder if anyone would ever want to draw me wearing something else..." m "That would be amazing!" m "If that ever happens, will you show me?" m "You can share it with me on Twitter, actually!" m "My username is lilmonix3." m "Just...try to keep it PG!" m "We're not that far into our relationship yet. Ahaha!" return label ch30_33: m "Hey, do you like horror?" m "I remember we talked about it a little bit when you first joined the club." m "I can enjoy horror novels, but not really horror movies." m "The problem I have with horror movies is that most of them just rely on easy tactics." m "Like dark lighting and scary-looking monsters and jump scares, and things like that." m "It's not fun or inspiring to get scared by stuff that just takes advantage of human instinct." m "But with novels, it's a little different." m "The story and writing need to be descriptive enough to put genuinely disturbing thoughts into the reader's head." m "It really needs to etch them deeply into the story and characters, and just mess with your mind." m "In my opinion, there's nothing more creepy than things just being slightly off." m "Like if you set up a bunch of expectations on what the story is going to be about..." m "...And then, you just start inverting things and pulling the pieces apart." m "So even though the story doesn't feel like it's trying to be scary, the reader feels really deeply unsettled." m "Like they know that something horribly wrong is hiding beneath the cracks, just waiting to surface." m "God, just thinking about it gives me the chills." m "That's the kind of horror I can really appreciate." m "But I guess you're the kind of person who plays cute romance games, right?" m "Ahaha, don't worry." m "I won't make you read any horror stories anytime soon." m "I can't really complain if we just stick with the romance~" return label ch30_34: m "You know what's a neat form of literature?" m "Rap!" m "I actually used to hate rap music..." m "Maybe just because it was popular, or I would only hear the junk they play on the radio." m "But some of my friends got more into it, and it helped me keep an open mind." m "Rap might even be more challenging than poetry, in some ways." m "Since you need to fit your lines to a rhythm, and there's much more emphasis on wordplay..." m "When people can put all that together and still deliver a powerful message, it's really amazing." m "I kind of wish I had a rapper in the Literature Club." m "Ahaha! Sorry if that sounds silly, but it would be really interesting to see what they came up with." m "It would really be a learning experience!" return label ch30_35: m "Ehehe. Yuri did something really funny once." m "We were all in the clubroom and just relaxing, as usual..." m "And out of nowhere, Yuri just pulled out a small bottle of wine." m "I'm not even kidding!" m "She was just like 'Would anybody like some wine?'" m "Natsuki laughed out loud, and Sayori started yelling at her." m "I actually felt kind of bad, because she was at least trying to be nice..." m "I think it just made her feel even more reserved in the clubroom." m "Though I think Natsuki was secretly a bit curious to try it..." m "...And to be completely honest, I kind of was, too." m "It actually could have been kinda fun!" m "But you know, being President and everything, there was no way I could let that happen." m "Maybe if we all met up outside of school, but we never bonded enough to get to that point..." m "...Gosh, what am I talking about this for?" m "I don't condone underage drinking!" m "I mean, I've never drank or anything, so...yeah." return label ch30_36: m "I've been imagining all the romantic things we could do if we went on a date..." m "We could get lunch, go to a cafe..." m "Go shopping together..." m "I love shopping for skirts and bows." m "Or maybe a bookstore!" m "That would be appropriate, right?" m "But I'd really love to go to a chocolate store." m "They have so many free samples. Ahaha!" m "And of course, we'd see a movie or something..." m "Gosh, it all sounds like a dream come true." m "When you're here, everything that we do is fun." m "I'm so happy that I'm your girlfriend, [player]." m "I'll make you a proud boyfriend~" return label ch30_37: m "Eh? D-Did you say...k...kiss?" m "This suddenly...it's a little embarrassing..." m "But...if it's with you...I-I might be okay with it..." m "...Ahahaha! Wow, sorry..." m "I really couldn't keep a straight face there." m "That's the kind of thing girls say in these kinds of romance games, right?" m "Don't lie if it turned you on a little bit." m "Ahaha! I'm kidding." m "Well, to be honest, I do start getting all romantic when the mood is right..." m "But that'll be our secret~" return label ch30_38: m "Hey, have you ever heard of the term 'yandere'?" m "It's a personality type that means someone is so obsessed with you that they'll do absolutely anything to be with you." m "Usually to the point of craziness..." m "They might stalk you to make sure you don't spend time with anyone else." m "They might even hurt you or your friends to get their way..." m "But anyway, this game happens to have someone who can basically be described as yandere." m "By now, it's pretty obvious who I'm talking about." m "And that would be..." m "Yuri!" m "She really got insanely possessive of you, once she started to open up a little." m "She even told me I should kill myself." m "I couldn't even believe she said that - I just had to leave at that point." m "But thinking about it now, it was a little ironic. Ahaha!" m "Anyway..." m "A lot of people are actually into the yandere type, you know?" m "I guess they really like the idea of someone being crazy obsessed with them." m "People are weird! I don't judge, though!" m "Also, I might be a little obsessed with you, but I'm far from crazy..." m "It's kind of the opposite, actually." m "I turned out to be the only normal girl in this game." m "It's not like I could ever actually kill a person..." m "Just the thought of it makes me shiver." m "But come on...everyone's killed people in games before." m "Does that make you a psychopath? Of course not." m "But if you do happen to be into the yandere type..." m "I can try acting a little more creepy for you. Ehehe~" m "Then again..." m "There's already nowhere else for you to go, or anyone for me to get jealous over." m "Is this a yandere girl's dream?" m "I'd ask Yuri if I could." return label ch30_39: m "You know, it's been a while since we've done one of these..." m "...so let's go for it!" m "Here's Monika's Writing Tip of the Day!" m "Sometimes when I talk to people who are impressed by my writing, they say things like 'I could never do that'." m "It's really depressing, you know?" m "As someone who loves more than anything else to share the joy of exploring your passions..." m "...it pains me when people think that being good just comes naturally." m "That's how it is with everything, not just writing." m "When you try something for the first time, you're probably going to suck at it." m "Sometimes, when you finish, you feel really proud of it and even want to share it with everyone." m "But maybe after a few weeks you come back to it, and you realize it was never really any good." m "That happens to me all the time." m "It can be pretty disheartening to put so much time and effort into something, and then you realize it sucks." m "But that tends to happen when you're always comparing yourself to the top professionals." m "When you reach right for the stars, they're always gonna be out of your reach, you know?" m "The truth is, you have to climb up there, step by step." m "And whenever you reach a milestone, first you look back and see how far you've gotten..." m "And then you look ahead and realize how much more there is to go." m "So, sometimes it can help to set the bar a little lower..." m "Try to find something you think is {i}pretty{/i} good, but not world-class." m "And you can make that your own personal goal." m "It's also really important to understand the scope of what you're trying to do." m "If you jump right into a huge project and you're still amateur, you'll never get it done." m "So if we're talking about writing, a novel might be too much at first." m "Why not try some short stories?" m "The great thing about short stories is that you can focus on just one thing that you want to do right." m "That goes for small projects in general - you can really focus on the one or two things." m "It's such a good learning experience and stepping stone." m "Oh, one more thing..." m "Writing isn't something where you just reach into your heart and something beautiful comes out." m "Just like drawing and painting, it's a skill in itself to learn how to express what you have inside." m "That means there are methods and guides and basics to it!" m "Reading up on that stuff can be super eye-opening." m "That sort of planning and organization will really help prevent you from getting overwhelmed and giving up." m "And before you know it..." m "You start sucking less and less." m "Nothing comes naturally." m "Our society, our art, everything - it's built on thousands of years of human innovation." m "So as long as you start on that foundation, and take it step by step..." m "You, too, can do amazing things." m "...That's my advice for today!" m "Thanks for listening~" return label ch30_40: m "I hate how hard it is to form habits..." m "There's so much stuff where actually doing it isn't hard, but forming the habit seems impossible." m "It just makes you feel so useless, like you can't do anything right." m "I think the new generation suffers from it the most..." m "Probably because we have a totally different set of skills than those who came before us." m "Thanks to the internet, we're really good at sifting through tons of information really quickly..." m "But we're bad at doing things that don't give us instant gratification." m "I think if science, psychology, and education don't catch up in the next ten or twenty years, then we're in trouble." m "But for the time being..." m "If you're not one of the people who can conquer the problem, you might just have to live with feeling awful about yourself." m "Good luck, I guess!" return label ch30_41: m "You know, it kinda sucks to be the creative type..." m "It feels like they work so hard but get almost nothing for it." m "You know, like artists, writers, actors..." m "It's sad because there's so much beautiful talent in the world, but most of it goes unseen...and unpaid." m "I guess that just means there's a huge surplus of creativity, huh?" m "Kind of makes you feel like you're just not special at all..." m "But that's fine! You're supposed to just write for yourself anyway, right?" m "Yeah..."
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D E L E T E - A Monika x Natsuki Fanfiction
RomanceMonika just witnessed Natsuki watching weeb anime mangos.........
