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finn wolfhard | let me go

jemima pov
finn and i was going to sleep in his apartment. we're already in bed, i'm facing the wall while finn is facing me. *get it?*
there's a lot of stuff going on in my head and i can't get rid of it. every time i close my eyes i keep imagining finn, and his secretary in his office, iris is doing something that they shouldn't do.
there's a tear falling down to my cheeks. i don't know what's going on with my mind right now, is it because of overthinking? my feelings? or the worst, my instincts?
i feel uncomfortable right now with finn laying next to me. but i want to hold him right now. and i want to have a look at his phone.
gladly his phone are next to me. i grab his phone slowly and unlocked it. i check his iMessage and search for the name 'iris'
well, i don't have to scroll down. iris name is the first that showed up when i open iMessage.
there's a long paragraph that iris has sent to finn, and finn hasn't replied yet.
I thought it was finn's business problems, but it wasn't. i read it once again, now more carefully.
yep, there it is. the paragraph is about her feelings for finn. i don't blame him, but as I can see, iris could be the perfect girlfriend for finn. she's pretty, she's smart, her parents are rich, she's kind. she would be perfect for him.
finn deserves better. the better one is iris. i put finn's phone down. I can't keep this tears that i want to let out, so i just let it out.
"jem? you're not sleeping?" finn groaned.
i wipe my tears.
"i can't sleep" i said lightly.
"finn?" i whisper, still facing the wall.
"yeah, what is it" he said as he tried to cuddle me.
"i feel uncomfortable" i said.
"what's wrong baby? tell me. and why are you facing the wall?"
he made me facing towards him.
his eyes became wider as he sees my red eyes because of crying.
"jem, are you crying? what's wrong?" he hugged me.
i breath in and i can smell his body scent, vanilla.
"i want to tell you what's going on in my mind right now"
"tell me babe" he rest his head on top of my head.
"you know finn, i've been hoping that somebody will loves you in the ways I couldn't"
"what do you mean jem? are you having a bad dream?" he cuts me off.
"and i wish somebody's taking care of all of the mess i made" i started burst in tears.
he keeps listening while his thumb wiping my tears.
"someone you don't have to change"
"i don't understand" he cuts me off again.
"finn, i'm sure someone will loves you more" i smiled.
"jem, what are you talking about?" he's still confused.
"do you know who's this 'someone' is?" i paused. "iris, finn. she'll loves you more and she'll fix all of the mess i've made. she'll take care of you"
he hugged me.
"so finn, let me go"
"no, jem, i'm not letting you go. i promised you, that i'll marry you" he cried.
"finn, let me go. please? i beg you, please let me go" i ask nicely.
i know that i still love him, but since i saw iris's paragraph, i realized that finn's belong to her. and they'll spend more time together.
"jem, please. you're my everything, i love you jem. iris is nothing for me, i don't have any feelings for her" he holds me even tighter.
"but you will finn, you'll have feeling for her. you deserves better. i'm sorry finn, i'm ready to let you go. so it's time for you to let me go" i said, burst in tears.
"alright, if that's what you want. but i'll let you go tomorrow. please, let me hold you for the last time tonight"
i nod. he hugged me like there's no tomorrow.
well, there's no finn tomorrow.
"i love you" he whisper, still in tears.
"don't worry finn, i love you too" i whisper back.
skip...
finn pov
i woke up with no jemima in my arms. my cheeks are sticky because i cried after what happened last night. i got up and still searching for jemima. there's no one in my apartment. she left. i dropped. i sat on the floor, thinking of jemima. all of our memories.
'it's time to move on' i said in my mind
seven years later...
i'm taking my kids to school today. iris can't take them.
yup, i decided to move on to iris. i think jemima's right. iris is the one. but i feel something that is not right.
"bye james!" said a woman who stands next to me.
that sound. it's very familiar.
i try to look at the woman without her noticing me. but she notice it.
"what are you looking at wolfhard? missed me?" the woman smirked. i fimally looking at her face.
"jemima!" i shouted.
i can't believe i can see her again, you know. after that night, i lost her track, i can't contact her. i can't find her instagram, snapchat, twitter, and anything else.
i want to kiss her. like we used to 7 years ago before the break up. but i realized, she wasn't mine. and i wasn't hers.
"so umm, where's your husband?" i ask, breaking the awkwardness.
"he died a year ago, because of a car crash. well, he deserves it. he was such a dickhead"
we chuckled.
"so you're with iris now?" she ask.
"yeah, kind of" i said.
"what do you mean 'kind of'?"
"she seems cheating on me" i smirked.
"ouch, that's harsh. same with my ex husband" she said.
she suddenly hugged me.
"i'm sorry, i missed you" she said, letting go of her hug.
"that's okay, if i can't hold myself i would do that either, even i'll kissed you"
"then, do it if you don't mind" she smiled.
i kissed her lightly. i missed this feelings.
i pull off because this get more awkward.
"coffee?" i ask.
she nods.
we walked to my car and went to a coffee shop.
we're talking about a lot of stuff. god i really missed her.
if i was allowed to confess one thing, i would say..
i love her.
~the end~