colorful | jhs

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hoseok

it wasn't long before i took you home. i decided to live with you now, as you were alone anyway.

it wasn't long before you developed strange symptoms. i took you to the best doctors that had no idea what was going on. i was lost.

it wasn't long before you couldn't speak anymore. it scared me so much. i cried, holding you in my arms each night, praying for a miracle, whispering "i love you" in your ear and never hearing it back.

it wasn't long before i slipped a ring on your finger as you nodded in agreement to marry me. i wanted to hear your voice again. i would sing your favorite songs to you sometimes, and you'd open your mouth to sing along, but nothing came out. it broke my heart.

it wasn't long before you couldn't see my tears anymore. you had gone blind, and i had gone numb. i ached seeing you suffer, cursing myself for ever talking you into those experimental drugs.

it wasn't long before your legs didn't work anymore. i got you a wheelchair and helped you get into bed each night. i still held you in my arms and sobbed. i felt your hands caress my cheeks softly and wipe away my tears. it only made me cry harder.

it wasn't long before i stood in front of your casket, staring at your cold, lifeless body. a once colorful soul, gone in the most painful way. you were dressed in white and you had the ring i gave you on your finger.

it wasn't long before i stood in front of your grave, speaking to you, somehow still hoping for an answer. i brought you flowers and told you about my miserable days. i told you i loved you before heading back to repeat the same thing tomorrow.

i will always love you.