“I love you,” I said to Rona. “For who you are... Money, beauty, and fame are not important because these things are only superficial. Indeed, the little prince is right when he said that what is essential is always invisible to the eye. It can only be felt by our hearts.”
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I thought I am already happy with my life right now. I can wear whatever I want or just hang-out with my friends anytime. But somewhere within the momentary happiness, I realized how empty my life was. I am maybe contented woth the things I have, but deep down in me I long for that someone who will love ‘til eternity.
Most of my classmates before didn’t understand my personality. They often described me as “LONER” or “MR. SERIOUS GUY” because I seldom talk to them and drowned in my own cynical world. Yes, I have my own world.
I was born in a rich and hard-working family. My parents love knowledge so much and they spend most of their time in our business. We dont have time for picnics and outings because they are too busy wuth their work. Thus, much expected from me too. I was trained to embrace knowledge and the fruits hard working brings. Someday I will become the successor of our business.
During my highschool years, I had my first girlfriend. Her name is Katrina Cassandra Earnhart. Sad, but I was not inlove with her. The relationship was like a game for me. What I didnt realize was that she suffered much because of my insensitivity. I was like that to almost all the people around me, I really didnt care about how others feel. I only loved myself. That is how things shoulg go. Successful organisms are those that are competitive and self-sufficient. I totally commited myself with my studies and there is no room for social life. So, the relationship dind’t last. It was a bad memory. We broke up and I knew I wounded her heart.
I thought I can no longer wake up from that nightmare, but things were just about to change when I met RONA QUIBILLOS. She is not one of the “pretty faces”, she is just one of the “commoner” girls in the Campus. One simple girl who turned my world upside down.
Rona was not my ideal girl. She was poor and a struggling Student Assistant in our library. She was indecorous. She talks like a vendor in the market. Lines like”Echos or Pag xur girl!” were her common expressions. She was the EXACT OPPOSITE of my ex-girlfriend. Our first encounter? She ruined my mood! She was clumsy and irritating! >.<
I never thought that Rona and I would have become good friends. She brought me into her world. I said to myself before that I will never like her and “her” simple world, but I guess I was wrong. The truth is, I want to stay there with her forever. I almost forgot about our business, the market competition and the kind of family I have. I experienced genuine happiness with Rona. She and her environment filled my life with new shades of colors.
I learned many things from Rona. One of the best lessons she taught me is to be sensitive with the feelings of others. From there I learned to express my feelings with people. I felt good. I was happy and satisfied. She made me become more “human”. I learned to smile! I started giving love. Also, through the patient efforts of my own mentor who taught me about life made me love Rona even deeper.
As the days grew older for us, I decided to bring our ship to the shore. I told Rona about my feelings for her. She was terrified. Seeing her that very moment feeling so confused, I was lost for words. She didnt believe me. She told me that maybe I was not really inlove with her and I misunderstood my feelings. She told me that it would be better if I forget my feelings for her because we didnt belong together. Our personalities, our worlds, and our lifestyles were barely compatible.
The road was not easy. I needed to prove my love for her. I was determined. For the first time in my life I sacrificed things I never thought possible. I swallowed my pride and dared to appear stupid in front of her and my classmate just to let her heart knows, “Yeah! Im crazy for you!”. Then one day, the wait is over.
She shared to me her feelings. She said that she also loved me but was so afraid that I would only make fun of her feelings just like what I did to my ex-grilfriend. I cried and told her that I was renewed and how I see things already cleared. With a sincere heart I told her how she helped me see the true meaning of life and the real meaning of love. We were not different people after all. We love each other. She loved me. After saying I love you, she kissed me.
I thought our story was similar to those in fairy tales. We were happy together especially during weekends because we spent longer time talking, laughing, strolling. We didn’t had problems and everything was very fulfilling. But God reminded me that life was not a fairy tale. I encountered the most difficult trial that put my faith in Him to the test. Our happiness was limited by fate.
Rona was sick with Leukemia. Her physician told her family that Rona will only live for few months, maybe weeks or worst days. I felt mad. The doctor could be wrong. Because like everyone else he was only human being. God is gracious and the giver of life. He is the only one who knows when Rona’s breath ends.
I did not lose hope because I knew in my heart taht miracles do happen.
I was one of the reasons why Rona struggle to survive. She wanted to live more. She poured the last ounce of courage she had to undergo series of medication. She hopes that one day she would wake up healthy again. But Rona did not get any better. Everyday she is losing life. Every moment I am losing her.
“I love you,”I said to Rona. “For who you are... Money, beauty, and fame are not important because these things are only superficial. Indeed, the little prince is right when he said that what is essential is always invisible to the eye. It can only be felt by our hearts.”
Rona was silent after I said those words and I notice tears watered her pale cheeks. The she said, “Jasper, if it’s true that there is life after death, then I will patiently wait for you forever. If it will happen that we will meet again in heaven, I just hope that you will still want to spent your another life with me. Simple hugs will do. What is important is that you will still remember me.”
“What are you talking about? I mean why do you say these words to me? I know that you will be alright. You promised me before that you will never leaveme, will you?” I was not able to hide anymore my emotions.
“ I am leaving you for a while but know that I am also leaving you my heart. It will stay with you forever. I know that everything in this world will never last except for LOVE. If I have a choice to live again, I still want to be with you. I never realized before that I was important until I met you. Maybe God gave me a special task to help you realize how beautiful your life is if only you will learn how to care and extend your love to the people around you. He designed your life perfectly and I was one of His instruments. Now, I think my mission here on earth is already accomplished and Im very happy right now. Thanks for being part of my life.” She smiled.
After our last conversation, Rona passed away.
Now I am savoring the moments I had with her. Moments that made me who I am today. She tamed me. She loved me. Things are okay, but part of me is always asking, “How Do I Live My Life Again?”
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