The Secret (Niall Horan)

The Secret

Ally's POV

I'm done doing it, I quietly fix everything so no one will notice any difference and to the point that I use this without permission. My eyes were in the urge of crying and they're having a battle with my eye lashes on weather I should cry or not. Some people say that if you let the tears fall it means your letting it all out, no anger, no more pain and no more sufferring . You just have to let it all out, so that the pain stuck into your heart can easily be free. But I believe that crying is for the weak and I've been trying to be strong as I can, so crying is one of things that I regret repeating.

Thinking I should repeat it again so I can lift the burdens even just a little on my shoulders. Doing this makes me calm and and helps me to relax a bit. I was about to finish until I heard the doorknob twist followed by footsteps. As I turn my head to see no one other than.....Niall.

When he saw me his jaw drop and all of the the things that he was carrying drop to the concrete floor. His eyes widened , his lips formed into a perfect shape of an oval and his eyebrows can already reach his hair because of the way he raises them because of utterly shock. He shook his head checking if this is a dream or if he was just seeing things.But no, It isn't a dream though it is clear that Niall caught me and he looked so surprised and astonished.

He was looking for the right words to say but nothing comes out. He still can't believe that it was me.  Is it hard to believe? Is it impossible?

"t's You, You're-" I cut him off before he can even finish. It's no use of denying he already caught me. My only secret was been caught.

"Yes, yes it's me" I simply say, no intentions of denying. I bow my head and sturnly make eye contact with the floor while deeply sighing.

"Why didn't you tell me-I mean us" Of course he will ask me this.

"It's..complicated..It's just-You wouldn't understand..It's-ugh" I patheticly stutter while putting my head in my hands. He slowly pick up the things he dropped and let the conversation end..

Silence was unexpectedly formed and no one dared to talk and I  just continue fixing everything.

"I just can't believe I'm hanging out with the-" Niall starts but I cut him off because I was waiting for him to say something so I can ask him:

"Niall, do me a favor please" I say and sit beside him. He snap his head up that was intenionally lying on his palms to me.

"I-I don't know"

"Don't tell this to anyone, Don't tell anyone that it was me" I calmly state. I already know what he was thinking, he was probably thinking that I should tell everybody that it was me, but I don't want to.

Before he can deny I immediately speak up.

"Keep it a secret , please" I plead, I heard him sigh and I can tell he would really want to object.

"Alliyah,why?" He asked and I immediately avert my gaze towards the other direction, cause I don't want looking at the person when I confront.

"I already told you it's complicated"

"You can't keep a secret forever, because all secrets are made to be revealed"

"I know but I need to at least try and keep it as safe as I can. I just can't let all the people know that I'm----"