David
5 Days
Can someone explain to me why she has this effect on me, explain why I stay up all night thinking about what the fuck happened, explain why I cry myself to sleep thinking I'll never have her back, explain why I have panic attacks when I think about how she doesn't trust me, and possibly never will again. With all the smiles she brought me, I never thought she would cause so many tears. I thought she trusted me enough to know I would never cheat on her, she is the only one I want, no one else means as much to me as she does. I try to tell her how much I love her, and tell her that I would never do anything to hurt her, but each time I try she pushes me away. It feels as though my life with her is gone forever but I won't let that happen no matter what I have to do, I will not lose her. I will never give up...even if she gives up on me.
10 Days
I shouldnt be losing myself while trying to hold on to someone who doesnt care about losing me. Someday I hope she realizes how much shes hurting me too. You know I really miss the time when I meant something to her; I miss how happy I was with her.
15 days
During the day, Im over itduring the night, I still cry.
20 days
A true relationship is when you can tell each other anything and you will always believe them.
25 days
Today I realized, you dont care anymore, and then I realized, you probably never did anyway, and the saddest part of it all is that you made me believe you did.
30 days
I feel like Ive been fighting for so long, that I should just let go, as much as I want to keep fighting, I realize I cant win. Maybe in time she will realize all I have done for her, because sometimes you dont know what you have until its gone. One day Liza youre gonna remember me and how much I loved you, and then youre going to hate yourself for letting me go. I didnt lose you, you lost me, youll search for me inside of everyone youre with and I wont be found. Sometimes we arent meant to get over someone, and we go on living a little bit emptier. You stole my heart, you broke it, and you never even gave it back. You made me empty.
