I'm a cheater[Jiminff][COMPLETED]

hurt

Silly you.. Did you think he would comeback, hold you tightly in his small hands?
Well. It's best for you to stop dreaming. If it wasn't you. He would still be here. He is gone forever. Why?

.
It's because of your sick doings that make everyone hate you for who you are "if only I could turn back time, and treasure him dearly.." was what you said to yourself everyday. Tears can't stop flowing from your eyes-and you realized you needed him in your life. Actually, you don't deserve anything good from him. What are your sick doings? You cheated
On
Him.
ignored his love for you.
You were messing around. you didn't know he was watching you silently, with that, that was torture to him. Honestly, what is more painful than seeing your loved one kissing another man roughly,other than doing it to you? A kiss can't be bought with money, it was made with love. Just with that simple action made him think that you did not love him---not anymore.
Why did i keep him around? I suppose i still cared for him..no.. i cared for his assets.

-FLASHBACK ONE YEAR AGO-
"how bout your boyfriend? You don't love him anymore do you?" the man you were cheating on asked you. You didn't care about his question because you simply knew—Jimin won't probably find out what you were doing.
You will always come back home later, around 2am and he will still wake up just to ask you how was your day. Who will give up on their sleep and wake up just to ask someone that didn't care to answer about how their day went?
Oh and.
He saw it all.
He was following you
All. The. Time.
He was so obsessed with you he wanted to know what you were doing everyday, everytime, even if you are bathing in the bathroom. You started to think that he is a sick pervert and didn't care about him—your love for him was slowing disappearing.
Little did you know, he had C. A. N. C. E. R. He wants to spend all his time with you -oh did I mention..?

I cried, regretting what I did to him.
Crying is useless now.
What can I do?
I shoved him away when he needed me the most.
I can do nothing about it.
Because he died.

He committed suicide 5 days before his death. How I found out? He kept a diary and record his everyday doings in the small little book he bought.

4 OCTOBER 2015
I can't anymore, watching her cheat on me hurts, it hurts more than me vomiting blood everyday.

If I told her I had cancer, I don't think she will even care. I know,my last day is on 9 October. The doctor told me.
But,

I decided to end my misery today.

Dear diary, it was a pleasure writing in you.
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