Face it, you're gonna be alone forever. No one's gonna love you the way a husband loves a wife, or the way a boyfriend loves a girlfriend. So just settle for the love you get from family. Bc that's the most love you're gonna get buddy. You can cry about it, it's okay. But not too much. Maybe God put certain people on Earth to give more love than they can receive.
But I wanna love someone the way a wife loves a husband, and the way a girlfriend loves a boyfriend. I wanna give that kind of love to someone. This void is eating me up inside and the only thing that remains is hatred and poison. He makes me feel good inside, like I'm not that person anymore. He fills my emptiness with his smile, and his words, and he doesn't even try. I'm always ready for the next fix, for him to fill me sweetly and for this unbearable rush of satisfaction to overwhelm my senses. I'm waiting to find someone to make me feels this way for the rest of my days. I'm waiting to make someone out there feel this deep feeling of love. But fuck that gushy butterflies and rainbows love. I'm tryna fight with someone. I want someone to go through shit with. I want to ignore his calls, give him the cold shoulder, and force him to eat out because I'll make dinner for one instead of two. I want to tell him sorry, and I want to forgive him. I want to console and be consoled. I want to hug and touch him to make him big when he feels small. I wanna create life with him, and give that life all the love possible that is present between us. I wanna put that smile on his face, and a frown, and make his eyes roll back, and make water drip down his face. I wanna make him scream, and I wanna scream for him, I wanna make him yell, and I want to yell at him. I wanna hear my name leave his lips sweetly, whisper his name back to him. I want to hear his hum ring my ear drums, and make his toes curl. I want-
Too bad you're gonna be alone forever.
