I sob into jays chest as he drives far over the speed limit.
"It was so horrible." I cry.
"I know, I know. Your with me now he can't hurt you." I say, his lips grazing my ear.
"B-but aren't you mad at me?" I say pulling away to look him in the eyes as my voice cracks.
"No."
*joker*
That's a lie, I'm pissed that she left.
So pissed that I want to beat the shit out of her so next time she'll be to scared to leave me.
But she's to fragile, I can tell that she can only handle so much before she completely breaks.
And the fact that I care so much for this girl pisses me off even more.
I don't want a relationship, I don't want to be tied down, to fuck the same girl for the rest of my life.
I want to be free, to have any girl I want, to do anything I want and not worry about her getting mad at me.
I'm not someone that is easily loved. How could someone possibly love me, a monster, a murder.
"Do I have to leave?" She whispers looking up at me.
I could see it all in her eyes, the innocence, the fear, the hurt. All of it.
"No baby." I whisper.
I watch as she lays on my chest, her body curled up. She's so beautiful.
I grit my teeth closing my eyes.
I can't feel this way.
***
We get back to my house and she's asleep against my chest.
I look down at her, her dark brown hair, pale pink skin.......so beautiful.
I shake my head sighing. I get out and carry her inside. I take her to her room and lay her on the bed.
I take her out of the maids suit, I grit my teeth as I notice all the white stains. I take her underwear off but I don't let myself look at her goods.
I take her hair out and pick her up carrying her to the bathroom, setting her in the tub. I bathe her and put her in only fresh panties and a robe.
I lay her on the bed and sigh. I kiss her head and leave.
***
I wake up hours later, it's almost one in the morning.
I get up and tip toe out of my room. I walk quietly down the hall and down the stairs.
I hear the tv and I peak around the corner into the living room.
I see J slap his knee and laugh at the tv show. "Family guy?" I whisper.
I quickly hide behind the wall as his head snaps in my direction.
"I know your there kitten." He purr coming around the corner.
"H-hi." I whisper softly.
"Why are you out of bed?" He says.
"Why aren't you in bed?" I whisper
He laughs turning back to the tv.
"I don't sleep doll." He says sitting back on the couch.
"I-I'm just gonna go-" he cuts me off mid sentence.
"Come sit with me."
I blush softly and walk to him. I sit next to him but not close enough so wet touching.
