Me, Myself, and Everybody Else

Fade

Looking into my

Memories

I see so much love

So much light

I feel so much joy

So much happiness

Now all I can feel

Is the peculiar absence

Of feeling

The memories of the moments

When I started losing myself

And the inability

To get me back

Peering into my past

I never thought that I

Was open

But now I realize

That I was more open

Than ever

Now

I hide behind a mask

A facade

Pretending that I

Am all here

Am still the same

While I scream

On the inside

Beg for help

For something to hold onto

To keep myself

From drowning in these feelings

I reach for any sign of hope

But only grasp at

Thin air

And sob in my loneliness

As everyone I love ignores

That I have slowly

Faded away

I want so much to be

Free of this pain

But no one is there

To save me

As I

Die silently