••Secret Love•• Taekook/Vkook

RANTING Bc I trust you

I'm not updating bc I have been really down for a long time. I need someone to talk to bc I just talk to a friend or cry it out. But its getting worse and it is hard to handle. I just feel safe writing bc it helps when I need to let it out bc I'm out of tears. My friends are ignoring me they go one second to talking to me then leaving me. This boy I like well he likes me but he seems like he stopped. I don't care about him much anymore well I don't want to care. The thing is he keeps flirting with my friends and I'm getting so fucking pissed. I don't care if he wants his name here or not but his name is Luis. I thought he was perfect bc he actually likes kpop as well but he calls me by Lisa from blackpink when my nickname is Missa. Well that's what my friends call me my name is actually Marissa. But he doesn't understand I try and talk to him but he doesn't listen. I hope you guys stay with me bc its getting harder by the day. I just want to disappear but I don't want to tell anyone I'm depressed. I don't feel safe with anyone anymore bc I get away with things when my friends ask to look at my arm. I'm getting sick of it. I always remember when people ask the difference between lonely or alone. When you are alone its a choice and you have people leave you well ALONE. Lonely is when everyone leaves you and inside your empty bc your well LONELY. Also I feel like I mess up anything and I'm always breaking things like RM but when I do people get mad at me. They tell me I'm a mess up and I get bullied a lot people always talk behind my back but I always find out. I can't control anything they say and talking to an adult never helps it just makes me cry out even more.

I'm sorry for ranting and you didn't want that. I just really need someone shoulder to cry on bc everyone left me. My family barely notices. I have to deal with basketball and I have a game in a few days and I keep messing up again. I'll try and update whenever I can. Again I'm sorry.