You're The Reason

Chapter 18: What I'd Do To Have You

Chapter 18: What I'd Do To Have You

Chloe sat there in front of Beca, blank faced and choked up while she tried to find the words to explain to Beca what was going on. Beca didn't seem angry, just confused.

"Chloe, who is Keith Ryan? And what is this job in New York City?" Beca asked again. She looked at her girlfriend and waited for an answer.

"I was going to tell you about it." Chloe said. "If I got the job."

"Well you got it according to this guy on the phone." Beca stated.

"Really?" Chloe said. "I did?" She was a mix of emotions right now, she was super happy she had got the job, but now she needed to tell Beca everything she'd been hiding.

"Yeah you did." Beca said half smiling. "Now why don't you tell me why I haven't known about this when I'm your girlfriend, I thought we told each other everything."

Chloe took a deep breath. "I do tell you everything." She stated.

"Well you didn't tell me about this, why?" Beca asked.

"Because I didn't know how you'd react if I told you about it." Chloe said.

Beca bit her lip and looked down. "Who else knew about this?"

"Luke, and my mother." Chloe said, but she knew Beca didn't believe that was everyone. "And Aubrey."

"So you told your best friend, but not me? You know Aubrey probably told Jesse right?" Beca said, a little hurt by the fact that Chloe didn't tell her this. "Why am I the last to know out of the four of us? And why are you so scared of how I may react to this news? It's great news."

Chloe nodded, "I knew you would be happy with me, but that's not why I didn't tell you until now."

"Why didn't you tell me until now then?" Beca said, looking into Chloe's eyes intensely, starting to feel that Chloe was about to shoot a metaphorical bullet at her.

"I didn't tell you because-" Chloe then sighed before continuing. "Because this job is in New York City, and it changes our plans. My plan was to stay here and do graduate school but then they emailed me for a chance to be the head choir director. And I didn't just want to let it blow by, so I responded. I didn't even think that I had a chance for this job. But then they called and said they wanted an interview with because I was a finalist. So that's why I went to New York. To be interviewed. And I didn't want to tell you because I was scared you would change your plans and move to New York with me."

"Why would you be scared of us being together?" Beca said. "That doesn't make any sense whatsoever."

"That's not what I'm getting at, just let me finish." Chloe begged, Beca nodded for her to continue. "You need to stay here, and finish college. You're getting a free education which is something so many people would kill for, and the Bella's need you too. If you followed me to New York, school would cost fifty grand plus a year. And I would be working all the time so I wouldn't get to see you very much anyways. And I am scared that you'll resent me because we will have no time together. I'd feel farther away from you if you moved there with me than if you stayed here where I'd feel closer even though I'm far away."

Beca just sat there after Chloe finished, not knowing what exactly she should say. She understood where Chloe was coming from, Beca would follow Chloe anywhere she went. But at the same time it hurt her deeply that Chloe kept this hidden from her, and that she had to find out over a voicemail left from Chloe's new boss. Beca looked down away from Chloe and sniffled, getting choked up inside, feeling a massive lump growing in her throat.

"Say something please," Chloe said after about two minutes of complete silence between the two of them. Beca looked back up at Chloe, tears welling up in her eyes.