Elizabeth's POV *5 days later*
I am in the hospital for 5 days. Many people have visited me already. I have gone through 2 surgeries on my arm which is really damaged, because of the crash. I have a few broken ribs and I have this big scar on my shoulder and fore head. People had seen me with tears in my eyes when I was in the car after I fainted. Everyone is asking me why this happened. I told them that it was true that I was emotional, but I lied that I can't remember why. I lied that I hit my head against the steering wheel and forget why I was so emotional. Ofcourse I still remember why I felt like that, the feeling hasn't changed at all. I still feel as broken as before and don't get me wrong. I want Cameron to be happy, he deserves all the love of the world. But I always thought we had this special connection and that he felt the same way as I felt for him.
I had been waiting in the hospital with Nash for all the results and till I woke up. When I woke up he expected me to ask him to visit me, but that was not what I wanted. When I woke up I was so shocked that I told the nurse that I wanted Nash to come, I told Nash how I felt and what really happened. I told him to tell Cameron that I didn't wanna see him at all, that I am to emotional and tired to see anyone that day. After Nash told him that news Cameron has been crying in the hall begging the nurses to let him see me. Still I refused to see him.. the other days I let many people visit me, but everytime Cam wanted to see me I told the nurse that I felt really bad and didn't want any visitors. So basically Cameron hasn't seen me after the accident at all. Which breaks my heart, but I just don't wanna see him.
It will kill me, if you know what I mean. Today my colleagues are coming to visit me, including Tiffany. Am I excited to see her? Honestly not.. but I can not blame her for being in love with Cameron. He is a amazing person with a heart filled with love and happiness. I mean I can not stop people's feelings, you can't stop people from falling in love with each other. Of course everyone deserves a happy and healthy relationship, but it's hard when one of those persons mean the world to you and when your in love with them as much as I am. Wow I never expected myself to really say I am in love with Cam, but I can't lie about it anymore. My feelings for him got so strong that it's getting way harder to hide them now, thats why I don't wanna see Cameron anymore. "Omg Liz.." I heard Bella out of no where while I saw all my colleagues walking into my little hospital room. "Hey guys" I smiled..
A/N- I started writing a different way, that it more looks like your the diary of Elizabeth, kinda. That it's like she is telling you the story sometimes, like tells you the situation and the way she feels. 💕
