"I'm sorry Hayley!" Nate screams as I see Ethan's car leave the house "shout up Nate, you did this!" I yell frustrated while I feel my salty tears land on my flushed lips.
"I hate you Nate!" I say looking deeply into his eyes and I could tell he was hurt by the words
"I fucking hate you!" I scream running towards my car "where are you going?" Rachel yell throughout the driveway "away from Nate!" I fire back as I see tears roll ever so slightly down his cheeks. "Hayley don't!" He yell frustrated as I enter the car and speeds of. I sigh looking out of the window and my eyes go directly to Nate that is screaming after me. I grab my phone from my pocket and immediately I dial Ethan's number but it goes straight to his voicemail.
"Come on Ethan!" I mumble frustrated as I call once again "god damn it!" I scream as it goes straight to voicemail again. "I hate my fucking life!" I scream aggressively as I punch multiple times at the steering wheel. "Argh!" I yell as I drive towards my house with tears streaming down my cheeks. As I'm about to park my car, I hear my phone ring "Ethan" I mumble but when I see Nate's name on my phone my smile disappears. I sigh walking towards me house as I wipe the leftover tears from my cheeks away.
"Mom?" I yell throughout the house but no one seemed to answer. I walk directly up to my room and over to my drawers where a cigarette pack was laying.
"Don't do it Hayley"
I hear Rachel scream in my mind as I light up the cigarette. The smell of smoke and burned paper felt like home. Everytime my mom would hurt me, I would storm to my room and light cigarette after cigarette to calm me down.
I sigh inhaling the dark smoke as I immediately felt it itching in my throat. "Stronger than I remember!" I sob to myself as I feel my salty tears land on my lips "god I'm so pathetic!" I mumble as I look myself in the mirror. I see my black mascara running down my face "great" I laugh as multiple tears still rolled down my slightly black cheeks. I sigh as I wipe the tears away from my cheeks when my phone suddenly starts to ring. I look at the screen and sees Grayson's name pop up on my phone, but I didn't answer it. Call after call another cigarette was lighted up as another tear touched my lips.
Next day
"Where's Ethan?" I ask Grayson as I look around the hallway but Ethan was nowhere to be seen "he didn't come home last night" Grayson says with a lowered voice "did he text or call you?" I ask frustrated as I impatiently waits for a answer "no not at all!" Grayson says as we walks towards our class. "Grayson?" I rapidly say while I stop him in front of the class
"Yeah?" He asks as he looks at me with a confused face "Y-you don't believe that I kissed Nate, right?" I nervously stutter while I pick at my nails "No Nate told me that he kissed you!" Grayson says with a disgusted voice as we enter the classroom "thanks Gray!" I whisper to him while we sit down in the back row. I sigh looking out of the window as I see the rain fall onto the green grass "so can someone tell me what the square root of 200 are?" The teacher loudly yell throughout the class "Grayson can you please tell me?" The teacher asks and immediately Grayson gulps on his own saliva "100" I whisper to him "100" Grayson rapidly says with a nervous voice "correct!" The teachers says as she turns around "thanks!" He says smiling. "Okay class is over!" She loudly yell as we all get up from the chairs and walks towards the hallway "Remember I'm coming over later!" I say to Grayson while I put my hair up in messy ponytail "um actually we're having family dinner so" He says as he scratches the back of his head "um okay see you tomorrow then!" I mumble while I walk towards the doors. I sigh loudly as I open my car and gets in "family Dinner" I whisper confused as I speed of the schools parking lot.
I light up a cigarette when suddenly I see a text from Rachel.
Text from Rachel
I'm coming over now!
I choke on the thick smoke when I see Rachel's car park outside my house, so I quickly throw the barely smoked cigarette in the trash can as Rachel rings on the door. "Shit" I mumble as I run downstairs immediately "okay you won't believe-" Rachel's says but suddenly she stops talking and looks at me "Hayley why do you smell like smoke!" She says before she runs upstairs. "No Rachel don't I can explain!" I scream throughout the house as I run after her
"You promised Hayley!" Rachel screams as she walks out of my room with a half empty cigarette pack "I-I can explain!" I Stutter as I try to grab the cigarette pack from Rachel's hand "please" She says commanding "okay after the episode with Nate and Ethan, I felt heartbroken, cuz you know how much I like Ethan and now he hates me okay. I needed to escape the pain and the cigarettes helps with that!" I sob while I wipe the tears away from my cheeks. "I don't care Hayley you promised me that you wouldn't smoke again and here you are smoking behind my back!" Rachel screams frustrated as she runs downstairs and into the kitchen "Rachel I'm so sorry!" I yell with tears streaming down my cheeks
"Well I'm not!" Rachel says as she grab a knife and cuts the cigarettes pack right over, so all the cigarettes fall onto the floor.
"Next time don't lie to me and smoke behind my back!" She says grabbing her bag from the floor.
"Oh and by the way Ethan came home last night but Grayson promised him not to tell you!" Rachel scream before smashing the door closed.
Authors note
I'm baaaaaaaack with another chapter and I hope you guys love it.
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