Not Sorry (Yoongi Poem)

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Officer Ramirez, what was my alternative?
Tell me, how many time have you been out there to get Yoongi?
Probably a dozen times at least?
It's the same ordeal everyday, you take him away with his breath smelling like Corona and he spends the night sleeping it off and me picking him up in sheer fear.
You know what its like Officer?
Ice in your veins.
I did try to leave once with my best friend Seokjin.
Actually, we left more than once.
One time we made it all the way to Gwacheon.
We ran out of money and he was calling me.
His voice as sweet as honey.
Jin tried his best to convince me to keep going.
He said he would get a job to help both of us out.
We could have a fresh start together.
But I turned the car around and I drove straight through the night.
You know the Earth turns at 1,000 mph? Normally you can't tell but you feel it when you're going the wrong direction. That was 3 years ago.
And then, it all started again.
Now I'm guessing you wanna hear about last night's event?
Yoongi was out...as usual...and I heard his car popping and cracking its way into the driveway.
The way the gravel was crunching underneath his feet signified he was drunk again.
Pretty soon I heard a slam against the wall and yelling in the living room. Something wasn't right, I decided to slide down the railing of the staircase and ran to the living room.
I saw him over Jin, kicking him over and over and Jin wasn't even conscious anymore.
I was screaming at Yoongi to stop and he looked at me in pure rage.
Something I never seen in him before.
I ran to Jin's room and I got the gun.
I kept a gun in a safe box in his closet.
It was our "just in case" gun.
Officer, I wasn't even thinking anymore.
I ran back to the living room and I shot him. I shot him 4 times, two in the chest and two in the head.
He didn't even know I was there.
He was too busy trying to kill my true love.
Last night it was either Yoongi or Jin...I may have loved him but it was Yoongi who had to go in the end.
I'm not even sorry about it either.
So go right ahead and do what you must. By the way, can I get something to drink?
Wait.....can you feel that?
The Earth finally stopped moving.
I'm finally at peace.
If that's not enough to keep me out of jail I don't know what is.
All I know is that I saved him and that's all I care about.

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