Courage

Chapter one: New Beginnings

Once again guys I'm completely new to writing on here and doubt I'll get much feed back but it is appreciated as long as it's not hurtful. Enjoy!
Xoxo Grace
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Sometimes I try to imagine what life would be like if I was raised in a different family, born in a different town, or even country, lived a completely different life with a completely different outlook and perspective. Sometimes I think "Wouldn't it be nice?" But then I remember where I'm at.

School.

I shiver just at the thought of that dreadful word.

I had been zoned out for thirty minutes during a lecture (by the worlds most boring math teacher, Mrs. Pierce) before I was brought back to reality by her incessant repetition of my name to grasp my attention.

"Ms. Shaw! I have said your name four times already! Either pay attention or leave my class!" She yelled at me like I was doing the devils work by not paying attention to how to graph a basic function.

In all honesty, I was daydreaming about what it would be like to kiss a girl. As embarrassing as it is, I haven't quite figured out my sexuality, but none the less I still fantasize about girls consistently.

"Sorry ma'am," I muttered, "it won't happen again."

"It better not or you can kiss your afternoons for the next week goodbye and instead spend them with me in detention!" She practically hissed at me before going back to teaching her lecture.

'I'd rather be kissing girls' I thought to myself in response to her comment about kissing my afternoons goodbye. Hah. I can make good comebacks even if they aren't spoken out loud and potentially confuse me about my sexuality even more.. Well fuck.

By now you're probably wondering a lot about me. My name is Kelly Shaw. I'm a normal high school student in California, with average grades, parents who care about their work more than me, and my brother, Christian, lives half way across the country to get away from our parents and the drama Ocean Beach brings.

School has never been my strongest aspect, but considering I have no interests outside of it besides art and music, my parents really push for me to only focus on it and nothing else. Sometimes I feel like they only encourage me in school simply so they can say I've done better than my brother. He wasn't a horrible kid but he went through a lot and struggled in school. Being the family screw up is hard, but if you're in my position where you're expected to be the most prized and accomplished person in the family with everyone putting constant pressure on you, I would rather be the screw up who isn't expected to accomplish anything.

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Side note: I will will post the first five chapters back to back and after that I will post 2-3 times a week. I like to be consistent so even if they're small chapters I'll always be updating pretty regularly unless something comes up!
Xoxo Grace
Ps. The main characters name is subject to change because I don't know how I feel about it. Feel free to leave some comments about what it could potentially be changed to!