about me and some art

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Can't really think of a title for this so here go's nothing...

About two weeks a go I tried killing myself for I think the 7th time this year THIS year not all my life...

and I've gone in to panic mode at this point and trying to find reasons to live and...

I have so many...

Reasons:

1. I have to be here...

2. I have my friends...

3. I have my family...

4. I love you all...

5. I can't keep running away from my problems...even if sometimes I want too...

6. I can't leave every thing I love...

7. I love being here...

8. I'm sane...

9. I'm a fighter...

10. And I have all of you...

And than again I have my reason too leave...

Reasons too leave:

1. I'm a failure...

2. I'm a waste of talent...and I know this cause my teacher told me this himself...

3. I've lost almost every thing...

4. I have a death wish...

5. I'm done pretending to be happy...just cause I'm smiling doesn't mean its real...

6. I'm depressed...

7. I'm going insane...

8. I'm breaking down slowly...

9. I don't know what to do...

10. I'm useless...

11. I'm a disappointment...

12.  I'm losing it...

13. I lost the only person I loved...

14. I feel dead...

15. I have no one...