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Letter 5

The Final
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RESET
- i'm willing to do that

Excitement filling inside my heart. I've wait this for so long and i can't wait for it. Imagining how she would react if she see me again. Thinking about her over and over again makes me fasten my step.

I manage to go through the cold night. Making myself entering in the front door and walk more unpatiently towards her room. My smile when bigger while im standing right infront of her room.

The freshness of the buckwheat flower on my hand is the symbolize of what i am to her right now. I knock before open the door. I see what really i wanted to see when i open the door. It's revealing her figure sitting on her bed.

She turns her head when she heard the knock on door. I give him my happies smile that i have. I move forwards to her and sit next to her on the bed.

"I'm really glade that you're awake. For all this time, my patient waiting for you to awake is worth it. I really miss you." I said.

I put the buckwheat flower on the table and hug her tightly as there's no tomorrow. She was everything for me since the first time. There's no others girls that can replace her.

"I really miss you." I manage to said again.

Im hoping her to say the same thing as iam but there just my expectation. The reality is.....

"I'm sorry, but who are you?"

That was the words im afraid of. She didn't recognise who iam. Amnesia. Yes!, she has an amnesia. The doctor just said to me before i came here. The doctor said the damage on her brain makes her having an amnesia. But luckly it just a permanent amnesia.

Eventhough it just permanent, i still dont that happen to her. I want her to always remember me. Remember who iam. But fate. You cant change the fate that god has given to us. Most of us has an issue to except the fact for the first time. It same goes to me, but now i have fully except it. I know it was my punishment from the god for not treating her as what i promise.

"What you give, you get back". That is what happen. I broke her heart so many times that i can't even count how much it is. I let go of the hug slowly. My eyes glued on her. Her eyes. It so innocent. She doesn't even deserve to be in this way. It suppost to be me not her.

"You really dont remember me....dont you?". I said with full of tears about to come down.

She shake her head. It obvious that i was no longer on her memory. It has been erase from her. My world turns up side down when the first time i heard she had an accident. I was hoping and praying every night. Im praying she will be fine.

Without i notice, tears fall down from my eyes. It break my heart when i see her this way. I was hoping for the miracle right now. The miracle for her to just a second to remember who iam. Who i was to her. Just a second. Not much.

"Don't cry. Our eyes is not suppost to use to crying. It suppost to let we see what's happiness might comes." She said while wiping my tears.

We lock our eyes. That smile. I miss it. Her smile that she always give me haunted me. She such like an angel.

"But im only human. How can i even do that." I said.

She careses my cheek. The way her hand touch my skin make me miss every touch of her. I really miss it. A lot. I touch her hand on my cheeks and kiss it. She doesnt seems to mad about it. She even make a smile for me.

"You remembering me with a guy who exactly looks like you in my dream." Im stop what im really doing. Im really interest with her story about this guy.

"When im in my dream, this guy is same like you. His face, his act, and everything was same like you. In my dream, he is my important person. He is everything to me. Im feeling very lucky to have him. But...... not to lucky when i knew he was cheating behind my back."

That's what really i am. A big liar. It was me. It's really me. I've regret what im done to her. Everything.

"Do you think i should forgive him?". She said again.

And again. Im feeling broken. Im willing to apologize to her. Im willing to do everything as ling as she forgive me.

"I'm so sorry for what i've done to you. If you ask me that question, would you forgive him if he come back to you and give him the second chance?". I said with full of hope.

"Im gladely to forgive him if he really come back to me. I.... i really miss him. I would love to give him another chance."

By hearing that makes me thanking god for hearing my pray. I really am.

"If that so... im really sorry. I mean it." Tears fall again.

I cant help it. Im willing to look weak infront of her. And once again she wipes my tears.

"Can we reset back?. Reset everything and start from the first time we meet?".

She look confuse but still not hesitated to ask me again. This time she answer with the word that i really want to hear.

"Can i do that?"

I nod and smile appears on my face. The happiers that came out to me is such a blessing. I know i might make her being suprise but this is what i wanted. Reset back what we have done and be like the first time we meet. The first time happen to us.

The first time we have a kiss...

The End