~November 14th~
Cameron P.O.S.
"My trophy is to be the ruler over all. I want to have power over everything and everyone. Pharaoh truly fits me, I basically run anything I'm in it's just a part of me. So, when I graduate I'm going to make my own business and run it, and be as successful as I can make myself be."
Walking in school without a care in anything or anyone. I'm just trying get my education and that's the only reason I came today. Today... is REALLY not a my day to tell you the truth.
I walked past my locker. I'm just heading straight to 1st hour. As soon as I walked in the classroom girls started starring and whispering. I usually say hey or something, well me and niggas always make an entrance but I wasn't up for it.
I sat way in the back and put my headphones on before pulling out my work to get started. I could only feely anger in my system and I have nothing to calm myself down. Last night most definitely didn't go as planned. I was supposed to just chill at home until this little party started but no.
Last Night my mom and her "associate" were arguing and I got up to see and he was hitting on my momma. The bad thing is, I ain't stop him. The worst part is, I ain't care so, I was about to leave but she stopped me, begging me to stay and help her. If I had a choice to help her or help him throw her in her death bed....I'll be with him.
My momma put me through so much why would I help her? I kicked her off my leg and headed to my apartment I bought myself for situations like this. Sometimes I feel bad for treating her like that but she did it to herself. It ain't my fault she lost my trust by doing me wrong and being a hoe. If my dad was still here she wouldn't be like that.
I felt somebody tapping my shoulder but I ain't pay them no attention. The person soon sat next to me and immediately caught my attention. I pulled my headphones off and rested them on my neck.
"What's good Unique? "
"Trevor told me to check on you since I wasn't in class anyway"
"Why?" I asked facing her.
"He said you wasn't answering yo phone and you was supposed to meet up with them but you didn't show, What's up?"
"It was my mom again "
I honestly told her. I can actually talk to her and express myself more then I can with my boys. Even though she Trevor sister she never tells him anything I tell her so Yeah, she knows about my mom and what she does.... she basically knows everything about me. This girl is the real definition of a best friend.
"Oh...well he told me I had to go to your place today because -"
"I don't really care why, just come"
"Alright "
Her friends came over to her dragging her away from me. I'm use to it though, my friends do the same. As she sat and worked her friends just gossiped bout a bunch of bull and sometimes she joins in on the conversation but is always working even though this ain't her class period,That's why she passing.
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I pulled up to the parking lot of my apartment and walked up to the door with Leslie right behind me.
"You saw how Lauren was looking at me when I got in yo car?"
She spoke as we got in the house.
"Yeah she jealous"
"of what?"
"Us"
I said laughing and walked towards the kitchen as she sat on the couch.
"I don't know what for, we ain't got nothing going on"
"Sadly, nah we don't"
She just looked at me and we both started laughing. She knew I meant it in a funny way and I said it in a funny kind of matter but I still don't know if I'm serious or not. I grabbed two water bottles and sat next to her on the couch and she snatched a bottle from me. Rude much?
"So what was up with you earlier? "
I knew that question would've came sooner or later. I was hoping later but of course not.
"Alright so my mom and her nigga was arguing and he started hitting on her and she expected me to help her. I just left the house and just been thinking about everything she did and how different it would be if my dad was here, it'll be better"
"Okay Cam, you gotta stop trying fit your dad into the picture because he's dead. There is no way he could come back to earth and help her. I'm not telling you this to hurt you or make fun, I'm telling you this because YOU need to do something."
I let her words sink in. Am I ready to actually try and help my mom? I know she's my mom but she's still a human being. Everyone has problems...maybe I should help her get through her problems. Be the son I always promised her I would be when I was younger. If I'm willing to help her she needs to be willing to get help. I refuse to do all the work.
"Stop depending on him and make it better yourself because if you don't and she doesn't who will? Come on Pharaoh you got power. You rule everything! You are a leader, Cameron. Take power and leadership over the relationship you got with your mom and make it better. I'm telling you it's worth it once you get good results. You have a mother so make things right with her because you never know the day she'll be gone too."
I guess she got a point. See Leslie and Trevor lost their mom to drugs. She was a crackhead and didn't even take care of them. After she had Leslie she started doing crack. She stopped coming home some nights so Trevor had to get a job and provide for them with the help of my mom sometimes before she started doing drugs too. Sometimes they momma would pop up but the last time she did she took things from the house to sell for Money to buy more crack. After a while they momma never came back so it became harder for them.They still don't know how they didn't get put out because Trevor didn't pay pills or anything. He didn't have enough money for that. Once he realized that, he got to hustling when he turned about 14 and started selling. Me and Smooth always been friends since Pre-k. Nah, scratch that, we've been brothers since preschool and we watched and helped each other grow up so when he started of course I helped him out. Trevor is like the brother I always wanted but never had. I spent so much time with him because I had no siblings of my own. We are a family.
"Yo you right, I don't know what I would do without ya! "
I hugged her and started kissing all over her face.
"Okay! Okay, cam get off me!! "
I started laughing and she wiped away my touch.
"Girl you act like you don't want my lips on you"
"I am not acting! Ion know where yo mouth been, probably on some tramp from school knowing you"
"Chill out"
This time it was her turn to laugh. I sat back down on the couch and picked up my phone to see Lauren calling me. I looked over at Leslie and she laughed shaking her head.
"Answer it. If she say something about me I swear I'm at her head Cam! Put it on speaker."
I laugh answering the phone, ready to hear a cat fight.
