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Extra! Side : Jungkook

What was I even thinking.

I should've known i never had a chance in the first place

After being rejected by the person i love, I cried. But i obviously didn't want him to know i was.

I pretended to be okay. I convinced myself that i was ok. I believed that I was ok. At least.. until I leave him. Just until then, I will be strong

"I'm really sorry Jungkook.." Taehyung released the hug we shared.

"It's fine hyung.. it's fine.." I closed my eyes and furrowed my eyebrows, hoping he wouldn't see my teary eyes. But by miscalculations, tears started to drop

"Jungkook.." he wiped the tears from my left cheek with his thumb

"You shouldn't be nice to me anymore.." it would just break me more

"I... i will always care about you Jungkook.."

He didn't know. He didn't know how those words broke me. As if being broken to pieces wasn't enough, it was like being stopped on

"No. You see. This is why Jimin hyung is suffering! This is why I'm suffering! Are you pitting me?! Are you just toying with me?!" I panted and his eyes were widen, shocked on my words

I didn't know what to do, but i cried as i ran away from the room. His arms stretched out to reach for me, but thankfully he was weak, so i broke free easily

Everything was just not clear. My head was blurry. I remember the time when I first fell in love with him

"Hyung.. Can you help me with my math homework?" Back then, we still haven't debut, but Taetae hyung and Jimin hyung was close to graduating

"Heh.. you asked the wrong person. Ask Namjoon hyung" he smiles slyly

I didn't know what happened, but ever since then, i crave for his smile. In an instant, my bitter life change everytime he smiles.

"Hm.. Jungkook! Don't be shy!" He pulled my towel that was wrapping my waist. I knew what he meant was just be free and don't be shy. But by then, i had already fallen for him and it has gotten worst.

In a flash, I had read my own feelings. That I, Joen Jungkook. Loves Kim Taehyung

But what does it matter now?

I already lost

In the end. I lied to Jimin about Taehyung and how he was only using him. Yet, i failed. I knew I would

Today, everyone shifted roommates. I wanted to room with Taetae hyung, but Yoongi and Hoseok hyung prevented me.

But today is different. Just one day is fine.

Yet, i was greeted with a different tone of voice

"Jungkook! Why did you lie to Jimin!" Taehyung suddenly pulled me by my shirt collar. I was mad insane, I wasn't focusing on his words at all. Yet, I was staring at his lips. I lean in

I was two centimeters away from him before he pushed me away, well throwing, causing for me to fall because of the lost of balance. I felt like scum

"What the hell Kook!" He was staring down at me

"I already said this before. You are like a brother to me! Not a lover!" He yelled

I couldn't help but to chuckle, it was the first time he yelled at me and it was a cute first experience.

"Hyung. You said you care about me right? You said you would take care of me right?" I stayed on the floor. And he noticed that he wasn't really keeping his words at the moment

"If you still care about me, let me sleep with you. Just once" I cupped his cheeks with my palm. He took a step back

"No. Jungkook. I won't. I will never break my trust with Jimin" he stated with serious in his tone.

I chuckled once again. Smiling. Grinning. Crying.

"I know hyung.. i hyung.. you don't know how much it hurts me..." I was down and hugging my knees, not able to contain myself

He patted my back and softly carries me so I wouldn't look pitiful

"I can't sleep sleep with you.. but I can sleep with you" he smiled to me.

His smile could make butterflies appear on my stomach. But those butterflies could also migrate to my heart and sucked all of it's blood leaving it hollow. That is what i am feeling

I chuckled again.

I promised Yoongi hyung that this is my last chance and I won't do anything more to interrupt them. But sleeping isn't so bad

Tears ran down my cheeks again. "I'm sorry hyung.. for being crazy.. I won't chase you anymore.." he patted my head

We both got under the sheets. To sleep peacefully. I was cherishing this, as one of my most beautiful moment in life, and one of the saddest moment in life.

"Kook, I said sleep. Your hand is not supposed to squeeze me"

"Hehe. Sorry hyung"

But that won't stop me from teasing my favorite hyung ever