Ecdysiast of Him

Prologue

Ecdysiast of Him

Prologue

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I hate it, i hate myself, i hate my life, i hate everything about me. Why? Why do i need to end like this.

I have everything thing money, boyfriend, family and friends but then, why? bakit sa isang pitik lang biglang naglaho lahat sakin. Do i deserve this? To be threaten like im the most bad person in this fucking world.

Is it bad? to dance like a gro to have money. Masama ba, kasi kung masama. Well i don't care, kasi ang importante lang sakin ay pera para mabuhay ako sa puta**inang mundong to at matulungan ko ang magulang ko. Wala akong pakealam kung anong tingin ng iba sakin basta alam ko ginagawa ko to hindi dahil sa gusto ko kundi para sa magulang ko. Sila nalang ang meron ako at ayaw ko mawala sila. my mom is in coma and dad ayun nasa prisinto nangutang kasi ang pamilya ko ng billions ang kaso bigla nalang may aksidente na nagbago sa takbo ng buhay namin. Someone tried to kill my mother but unfortunately she/he didn't succeed, but fck my mom is in coma and dad really love her so much that's why he use the money for my mom surgery, but is not enough she's still not a wake. At yung pinangutangan ni dad sinisingil na sya at yun ang dahilan kaya sya nakulong.

Nabuhay ako na hindi alam kung pano mabuhay sa sariling mga paa and then someone offer me to do some work and that is to be a slut, a gro. Oo okay lang kung anong sabihin ng ibang tao sakin pero yung tanggapin ko sa sarili ko na im doing this, dancing in front of many people, taking off my clothes and worse making out to a person that i never know who really is. Im not this, its not me anymore.

How can i run to this kind of world? I want to run, i want to hide, but how ?

"let's go home" what, wait what's happening, who's this. "i said let's go" don't tell me makakaalis na ako sa mundong toh ohhh shit pls.. Wait makakaalis nga ba ako o maslalong maging miserable ang buhay ko sa kamay nya?

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