Dear future husband

12/12/17 letter one

Dear future Husband,

I wonder what your like. If Ive met you before or if I will anytime soon. I think about you constantly. I think about what you look like. Everything. I day dream of meeting you and falling in love but it's kinda hard since I don't know who your gonna be.

Ive had a really hard day. Life just seems to be against me. I want to die so bad. Im falling apart and I feel so alone. Please hurry up and get here already. I need you. I need love. I need someone to keep their promises and stay. I need to love someone. I need a forever with someone. I need someone who will be there for me. Someone to hold me while I cry. Someone to watch stupid romantic movies with me or play video games. Someone I can read poetry to or sing to and they always ask me to keep going. Someone who will love my art and always support me. I need someone to be my daddy. Someone to hide behind in a crowed room. Someone who always picks me first. Someone who loves me unconditionally forever. Someone to spend Valentine's Day with. Someone I can trust. Someone who took the time to earn my trust and love and always stuck around no matter what. Someone to love me though the good and bad.

Ive had to deal with people yelling at me today and loneliness. Ive been going through so much lately. I feel so broken and alone. Ive been super depressed lately. Everyday something happens that makes it worse. I feel so worthless and unwanted. I just I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I'd be dead without my friends. I only have very very few and they don't talk to me all the time but when they do they lift my spirits and make me feel better. I wish I was as important to them as they are to me.

Sincerely,
Your future husband