What Happens Now?

Will I Ever?

Will I ever be accepted?!

I do everything that is asked of me. Everything. No one notices. I cut my hair the way I wanted and no one notices until I post it on social media.

I guess no one cares. I am an outcast. A nobody to everybody. I vent to others but no one understands at all.

Depression creeps in and I dont feel like eating. I guess its because I see myself as fat and unlovable. Ugly and scarred. Cursed to live in a world full of hate and corruption. An unaccepting world that is cruel.

Will I ever be accepted as who I am and just be me? I dont think i will in this life or any other.

To my mom, I do nothing, my sister hates me, and my dad is never around. A fantastic life I live, I know.

But... My sister steals, lies, and doesnt do anything wrong in anyones eyes. My mom works herself to death, and my dad always complains even though he isnt there to see what I do.

I turn 18 in four months. Hopefully i can get a job and move out. Then maybe I can be happy and live the way I have always wanted.

A life where I work hard and be acknowledged for it. To be accepted as I am. To be happy whole-heartedly.