Hey peeps my name is Rene and I'm 16 years old and go to Rosa Fort High School. I'm in the 10th grade and I have a super hot boyfriend named Jacob Perez, we are madly in love at moments and at other moments I can't stand him but I can never be mad at him for long so I just give in to him oh he's 16 also and for some reason every girl tries to take him from me but always seem to fail because he loves me so much he just ignores them my bestieboos are Tai and Nadhyia I would die for those girls...
Nadhiya is like this really over chilled crazy girl and Tai she is my second love. I can't stand a minute without them. We have been through so much and it feels great to have friends on which you can count on. I love hanging out with them because Nadhiya, we call her Diddy is the funniest girl and Tai is the down to earth one.
When Jacob and I first started dating about eight months ago, Nadhiya was the cause of it. She literally went head over heels for him to ask me out. When we fight Tai, is the one telling me to give in or not, depending on how wounded and how wrong what he did is.
But Jacob never really hurt me, he just is kind of a jerk some times.
We've been dating since ninth grade and at first it was beautiful. Still is but you know what they say : every thing is well when it's new. I loved the way he would always hug me, take my bag, walk me to class, sit with me at lunch. He even left his own friends for me.
But things got bad about two months after we started dating. We had closed the first kiss chapter and like every sixteen year old boy....Jacob Perez was out to get some.
The origin of our fights is mainly due to the fact that i am not ready to have sex. I am not a pious christian or anything, it's just i believe in true love. I know i love Jacob, i can't spend a day without him. When i don't see him for more than two hours my heart aches and I hyperventilate. When he smiles at me, i can't feel my legs and when he kisses me, oh with those perfect half latino pink full lips i see stars and stay dazed and dazzled for over five minutes after his lips leave mine.
The first time we were about to do it was at his place. I told my father i had to work on a project. I hadn't said who with. My dad has been very protective of me ever since my mother's death.
Anyhow, I went to Jake's place and we actually studied. I helped his dumb ahh understand trigonometry and to thank me he kissed me. Before i knew it, i was straddling his lap and my hands were in his hair. I was so..hot...i didn't understand what was happening to me. Our kisses which were usually, soft and pleasant became agressive and pleading. He growled against my lips when i moved because I was uncomfortable but pleasurable buldge i felt under my jeans. I blushed furiously when i understood what that was.
Jake then made me fall over his bed and layed on top of me. He took his shirt off, then mine. He stayed there a minute, staring at my breast then went back to kissing my swollen lips. He cupped my C cup and played with them through my white polca dot bra. He was making me feel funny. I had this pain in my lower stomach and that thumping between my legs. I felt...wet...there.
His hands came to my crotch and grabbed it making me moan and purr. I blushed yet again at my own reaction. My mind was telling me to stop but my body wanted his so bad. I couldn't stop running my small palms over his slightly muscular arms and chest. He was in the track team so he was well built.
But then he was taking his sweatpants off and then mine. My heart was beating. My mind and my body were arguing.
But i let it go, because he kissed my neck and the top of my exposed breast and it felt so good as his hands worked down...there.
"Hmmmm," i moaned and he smirked, which made the thumping in my panties uncontrolable.
He took off my panties then he took off his boxers. I felt his groin on my thigh and that did it. My mind won over my body.
I pushed him off me and pulled my panties back up. I got dressed without a word. He was just sitting there, without saying anything until he decided to put his boxers back on. I was finally able to look at him and the Jake i saw was not the one i knew. This Jacob had lust hooded eyes and looked...animalistic.
I sighed at his pouting an stern expression. I told him i was sorry, but then he said he was sorry. He let me know that he loved me and that he wouldn't rush me into doing anything i didn't want to. I fell in love with him more. He came forward and kissed my lips, lightly, feathery like, like a dream and we cuddled until i had to leave.
After that he had tried to get in my panties several more times, the first three times he had apologize but now he will just get pissed off and call me a stuck up bitch.
That was the fourth time he tried. I had to kick him so he would get off me. That did it, he punch a hole into his wall and yelled at me. Calling me names and telling me it will be my fault if he ends up shooting because he was a man with needs and whatnot. I went home crying, i called Nadhiya and after conforting me with her swear words and tenessee talking to she called Jake and made him apologize to me.
He seemed sorry. He even made up for it. But even though it was a month ago, i am having a hard time gettign passed his words.
Every time i see him with a girl i go paranoid asking myself questions like: is he sleeping with her? Does she give him what i am not ready to give?
And even though he never tried to get freaky with me since that he has been different. Now, jake wasn't seating with me at lunch, he rarely held my hand, he kisses me but not the same way, he seems bored when he is with me.
It breaks my heart....he says eveerything is fine but it's not. I can see it, i can feel it. He loves me but he is distant.
Which is what got me thinking why not just band about it? Then get my man back.
