One-Shots

Sunshine

A Carl x Spirit one-shot-This goes after Carl shows he's been bitten
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Time moved like mist, and the mist was a wordless spell. I held Carl, his head resting on my lap, his arms around my waist. We stayed in this position for it seemed like hours, I didn't know when he will turn. After he told me that a walker bit him a few days ago, I didn't know how to feel. I ran my fingers through Carl's messy hair, soothing him, knowing he's in pain. I thought of everything, trying to figure out how to get rid of the hire mark, but it was no use. It was on his side, we couldn't cut it off, for the first time, everyone felt helpless. Rick and the others were in another room, already spent their time with him. Rick said that I should spend time with Carl, his life coming to an end.

"Hey, baby?" Carl said quietly.
"Yes?"
"When the time comes, you need to do it, okay?" He said, referring when he's a walker.
I couldn't say anything, there was a lump in my throat, I had no words. I've been killing walkers for most of my life, yes a few humans, but I never thought I would be killing the love of my life. Not like this.

"Spirit, do you hear me?" He said, not hearing a response.
"Yes, I understand." I didn't look at him, I couldn't.
Carl raised his hand and cuffed my cheek, he wiped a tear away, "Don't cry, baby. Please?" He asked. I sniffled and looked down at him, more tears coming, he looked worse than before. Carl smiled weakly at me, his eye sparkling in the sun that was peeking out from the window.

"One more thing... can you sing for me?"
I forced a smile and nodded, I started singing softly.
"You are my sunshine
My only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray..." I chocked up, my heart aching, Carl stared up at me, wanting to listen more.
"You never know dear
How much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away..." I sang the last verse quietly. Praying to God, not wanting to let go of Carl.

I leaned down and kissed him softly, knowing this is our final moment together.
"I love you, so much, I am glad to find a beauty like you in this cruel world... I will see you on the other side when the time is right. I love you." He kisses me softly. "Now do it." He said, he sounded broken. Weak.

I was shaking, trying not to burst out crying, I didn't know what to say. I got my gun and put the gun against his head. Carl smiled up at me, he closed his eye. "I love you." He whispered. I closed my eyes and pulled the trigger.

I finally opened my eyes after a few minutes, I looked down, the love of my life gone. I moved slowly, putting his head down on the ground gently. I covered him in a blanket we used to share. I waited until Rick came in with dad, they took me out as they wanted to say some final words. I went outside, walking to nowhere in particular. I reached the woods.
I took a few steps and the pain I've been holding inside ripped through me. I started to vomit, I held my stomach and went to the ground. I moaned in rage, choking and retching, hating myself. As the vomiting stopped, I felt the tears come. I stood up, dizzy with anger and felt a terrifying new kind of loss. I tried to pull myself together but I couldn't. I started to walk again, still crying, I realized that there was something inside me that had never been there before.

A deep, empty space.

I saw Negan coming up to me, all I remember was him swinging his bat, then everything went black.