The sound of the waves crashing to each other; the warmth of the sand beneath you. Those are your favorites.
You took a deep breath and glanced up to the night sky, it was dark, yet the stars were twinkling beautifully. Your mind wondered, am I going to leave such beautiful marks when I am no longer here?
You stood up and took your sandals with you, slowly went closer to the sea. When the water crawled to your feet, you shivered. The water was warm, but no longer after that it went colder; the same thing that happened to you and Namjoon.
The feelings bloomed like flowers in spring; as warm as how the ocean in the summer feels like; but they were just as cold as how the winter will be. You loved him, so was he. He was busy, less than you. You were guilty for loving him; but he didn't.
I can't even look at you for more than 3 hours in a week, is that even normal in a relationship?
Your eyes were trembling as you held your emotion. He looked to your eyes, we can work this out.
His hands tried to intertwine with yours, but you shoved them roughly. Your eyes were getting warmer, suddenly it became hard for you to take another deep breath.
I can't work this out, you've been hurt way too many times. I don't want you to feel the emptiness because of me, you deserve the whole world, Namjoon.
He pulled you tight to his body, I refuse to do so. You are my whole world, where am I supposed to go?
It was overwhelming for you. He had been sacrificing himself over and over again, and you were being selfish for the whole time. Your relationship was like an old, fragile rope. It might snap off if one of it ends carries too much.
But the other end refused to snap off, as it knew the only end that will keep it together had to be this one. Not other ropes.
There you are, it's getting late. Let's go before it gets too dark.
Namjoon cupped your cheeks together, what's wrong? Were you crying?
You laughed, wiping off your tears and smiled to him.
I wasn't, I was just thinking how grateful I am to have you by my side this whole time.
His eyes went missing as he smiled, his dimples went out at least.
Thank you, I love you. I'm really thankful you didn't give up on us that day.
