Still in my heart

The break up

"Eunbi-ah wae geurae?" asks Taekwang to Eunbi
Eunbi pull out her hand and says, "mianhae"
He turn his body to looks at her.
"Is there's something wrong?" Ask him
"Anieyo" says Eunbi without make eyes contact with him. She bow her head.
He takes a deep breath then says, "okay then. I should go. See you on monday." He smiles at her.
"Gong Tae Kwang. I.."
"Go Eunbi, I don't know why you did that but you make me really confused. I..." Taekwang is speechless but he force himself to continue saying what inside his heart, "you says that you want me to stop liking you. You are with him now. You're happy with him. He even kiss you. Then why eunbi? Why did you do that?"
"How did you know about the kiss?"
"I saw it by accident."
"Mianhae."
"Stop saying that. Stop saying you're sorry. I don't understand Eunbi-ah."
"I don't know why I did that. I don't know what's wrong with me Gong Taekwang. All I know is I don't want you to go to her."
"I can't.. I already said that I'll come. " he takes a deep breath again, he feels so frustrated. He says, "What do you want me to do? Should I wait for you while you're with him. Should I just stand here while you're laughed with him? You feel sorry but you want me to hold on you. I don't understand"
Eunbi just stand without a word.
Taekwang sighs and says, "and maybe Soo Young is right all along. I should stay away from you. I think that's the best"
Taekwang turn around and walking away from Eunbi.
Eunbi try to hold her tears but eventually it drops. She thought to herself , "you're right. You're always right. You stayed by my side when no one seems to care. I even pushed you away but you still standing by my side. All I do is giving you a scar. I don't have the right to ask you to hold on me one more time. I'm selfish. Mianhae."
She wipes her tears while entering her home.
***
Taekwang arrives at his house and tossing his body to his bed. He tries not to think about what just happened with him and her. He ruffles his hair and shout, "ah!"
He heard his phone rang. He pick up his phone and he says, "yoboseyo. Wae Soo Young?"
"What time will you come?" Ask Soo Young on the phone
"I don't think I can come. I'm not feeling well."
"Are you sick?"
"I just need to sleep. Mianhae."
"Ya.. Gwenchana. We still have next time. Get well soon."
"Gomawo."
They hang up the phone. Taekwang close his eyes and thoughts to himself, "who am I kidding? Everytime I close my eyes, I see you. How can I forget about you?"
***
In Soo Young house.
"Ahjumma, you don't need to prepare the extra plate. My friend is not coming" says Soo Young
"Ah.. but you make all of these foods for him."
"Gwenchana." says Soo Young while forcing her smile.
***
The next day, Han Yi Ahn goes to park to exercise. When he arrives, he see Eunbi waves at him.
"Ya. You shouldn't be doing this. You should take a rest" says Yi Ahn
"Gwenchana. I need a fresh air."
"Ckck.. you're so stubborn just like.. Mianhae."
"Gwenchana. Of course I'm kind of like her, I'm her twin sister. Han Yi Ahn, do you want a race? The loser buys foods for the winner"
"Sure. 1..2..."
They run and laughing. In the end Yi Ahn is the winner.
"Haha I won" says Yi Ahn
"Ya! It's not fair, you have long leg"
"Haha.. still I'm the winner"
They sit on the bench while drink their water.
"Han Yi Ahn.. Let's stop"
"Stop? What do you meant?"
"Us. I don't think I can do this anymore."
"Eunbi ah wae geurae? I said that I will change."
"Ara. I know you will change and i know that you can make me happy but I don't think I can make you happy."
"You make me happy."
"I don't think I can. When I accept your feeling, I thought that you are the one that I like. Not once I doubt my feelings to you. But being with you make me realize, I can't say what I want to say in front of you. Because I'm afraid to let you down. I'm not being me. I'm trying to be unnie. But I'm not her. It's suffocating. I understand why you always talk about unnie. She's a big part on your life. And I cannot replace it, no matter how hard I try." says Eunbi
"You don't have to be her. It's you that I like. I know that there's something that you hide for me. That's why I'm so envy with Taekwang. He knows how to make you talk, laugh and he always there for you. I want to be the one that you can rely on" says Yi Ahn
"Don't you recognize that it's her that you always prioritize. It's her call over my call. It's her life over mine. I understand that you're trying but I can't erase the fact that you do still like her. You maybe like both of us but her is the one you like the most. And you know what, I really don't mind about it. I'm not feeling sad, not one bit."
Yi Ahn can't say anything.
She continues her saying, " you know? What make me sad, this few days. I feel so lonely this few days. I thought it because of you. I thought because your training or maybe because you talk about unnie all the time. Then I understand. You always busy with the training but I never feel lonely. You always talk about unnie but I don't mind. I become conscious of someone presence. I make a mistake Yi Ahn-ah. I let him slip into my heart. This makes me wonder who's I truly like. And I know if I give you a chance, you'll treat me different. I'll be your priority but I don't think I can give what you want."
Yi Ahn sighs and says, "it's Taekwang right?"
She nods
Yi Ahn says, "michin saeggi. I know in the end he won. I know from the beginning it's a lose battle but I don't want to regret anything. When you accept my feeling, I was so happy but in the end it still him. Have you talk to him?"
"Aniyo. I don't think I will. I already hurt him once. I think he deserves someone better. Beside i don't think I can date anyone right now. Even though this is for the best. It's still hurt. I did loved you." says Eunbi with smile and tears on her face
"Ara." says him and he stroke her hair gently.
***
Meanwhile, Soo young comes to Taekwang's place. Taekwang is still asleep or at least pretending to sleep. He can't stop thinking about yesterday. His ajuhmma helpers comes to tell him that there's a girl visiting him. He wakes up immediately because he thinks it's Eunbi. But when he enters the living room, his hope was disappeared.
"Ah it's you" says Taekwang
"You look disappointed. Seolma.. did you think I was Eunbi?"
"Ani! Why're you here?" says Taekwang grumpily
"Hmmm.. go take a bath! We're going somewhere."
"Where?"
"Stop ask so many questions just do what I said"
"Shiro!"
"Ya! Gong Taekwang! Don't make me force you! You know I can do it." threatens Soo Young
"Araso. Just wait. I'll get ready."

After Taekwang ready, Soo Young pulls his hand and go into her car. Half an hour later, they arrive at the theme park.
"Why are we here?" Asks Taekwang
"To forget all the trouble. C'mon let's go."
They goes inside the theme park. They play almost all the rides there.
"Ahhh.. I'm exhausted" complains Taekwang
"Me too! But this is so much fun. Don't you think?" Says Soo Young
"Ne!"
"I'm glad to hear it. When you called me yesterday, I know something must happened between you and Eunbi. Since you're helped me yesterday, this is my way to repay it."
"Aigoo.. Gomawo"
"Ah I'm thirsty.. do you want my cola?"
"No. Do you need my help to open it?"
"No it's okay, I can do it"
She uses her power to open the can but her hand was slipping and it hits her chin.
"Ya gwenchana?" says concerned. He puts his hands on her chin and pull her face gently towards him. He continues, "let me take a look at it." His eyes look very closely at her wound. Soo Young heart is beating so fast. Their face are really close. After awhile Taekwang is realizing and he push her.
"Your chin is fine" says Taekwang
Soo young doesn't say anthing. She giggles inside her head.
"It's going to be dark. We should go." says Taekwang
"Okay. Let's go home"

They ride back into their own house. Soo Young arrives and she goes directly to her room. She puts her bag on the table and a text comes. It's Taekwang and he says, "thank you for today." She smiles and giggles while reading Taekwang message. She never know that she can be so happy just because of a text.
***

Since that day, Eunbi and Taekwang are barely talking to each other. They distracted themselves by studying for the exams.
It's not easy for them to keep on avoiding each other. Taekwang loses count on how many times he write and delete his unsend messages for Eunbi. He tries so hard for not calling her. Even though Soo Young always on his side, all he can think of Eunbi.
Days turn to weeks, weeks turn into months. It's almost winter holiday. This time of the year is the busiest time for her mom store. After school, she will go directly to her mom store and help her. She does everything to make herself busy.
But today is different, after school she doesn't go to the store but she goes to an airport. Her sister is back for the holiday.
"Halo Eunbi!" says Eunbyul smiling
"Unni!"
"Did you miss me?"
"I miss you so much"
They hug and Eunbi carry her some of her bags.
"Good to be back" says Eunbyul