My Letter To Myles Kennedy

The Letter

Hello again, Mr. Kennedy!
Why "again"? Well, I don't know (but I hope you do) if you recall the 24th of June in Leipzig, but when you were there with AB, I gave you my letter. In that letter I told you about my home, Romania, and shared some memories that I link to your songs. I also told you you'd been helping me deal with a death in my family. You've done a good job with that. I listened to "Summergirl", "In Loving Memory" and "Cradle To The Grave" on repeat and just talked to her, kinda said goodbye, a few weeks ago. It felt great. And you were there with me. Thank you beyond words.
Anyway, meanwhile I turned 15 on September 16th. I got into the national French competition and this school year has me pretty motivated so far.
And why am I telling you this?
Well, I just want you to know that you're here with me in my happiest, not only saddest times, too.
And why am I writing you another letter?
Well, even if I'd love you to, you won't be around forever, so I just want to let you know how loved you are before no one will be able to do that anymore.
Also, this time I have some art for you as well.
I decided to give them to you because it hurts to do it. It feels like giving my heart away after tearing it right out of my chest. That's why I want you to have them. When you'll be gone, I want you to know that I'd torn my heart out for you to have it. Because you've had yours torn out, too, so I might as well give you mine, right?
The point is that you inspire me. Even if it gets a bit extreme sometimes, like when I didn't sleep for 28 hours  because I could only think of you. "I'd like to tell you that you're always on my mind, moving in circles like a rhythm with no rhyme". Accurate as fuck!
But, as you're seeing here, you also inspire me to grab my pencils, grab my brushes and grab my colors, and create something that's, I hope, decent, sometimes even beautiful. As you can see, some of them have lots of colors. That's because your songs fill me up with emotion, dreams, ambition.
As you can see (I repeated myself, I know, sorry), two of them are inspired  by Stone Temple Pilots songs. I chose to give you these to exemplify the difference in emotion between your songs avd theirs. And also because, again, these are two of my favorites, so it hurts to give them away. And it should. If I gave you something worthless to me, what would even be the point of it? It has to hurt. I'm sure you get what I mean. So, yeah, have them.
Also, you've taught me lotsof things. Aside from really beautiful expressions in English, you taught me that, no matter how bad a situation is, it won't last for life, so it shouldn't be priced as much.
If it's something good, it should be cherished forever. That's exactly why I cherish every "I love you" from my soulsister, or every "I'm proud of you" from my mother. You taught me what to value and what really matters. And I thank you for it, I couldn't have made a better decision than I did when I got into your music and began to love you like I do!
You're my idol, my role model, the one I sometimes (quite often, hehe) have wild, intense, passionate little dreams/fantasies of (I'm 15 and you're a sexy man, don't judge me please, even though it's rather super strange for you, probably). However, I dropped the idea of calling you my hero as it seems you're uncomfortable being put in that place. And I don't want that. What I do want is you to realise how much your fans love you.
I love you, Mr. Myles(exilicious) Richard(orkus) Bass Kennedy.
Your weird, crazy fangirl who occasionally cries over your uncharted level of perfect,
Tania-Maria.
Oh, by the way, kisses, love, and hugs to the boys, the wives, and the kids (especially cuteorable Coop!!!)
Thank you for:
1. SMyling
2. Dorkusing
3. Saving
4. Inspiring
5. Writing
And
EXISTING!