Cracked.

Chapter 1

My teeth clenched and I anxiously waited for the bell to ring so math class would finally end, and end my suffering. I sat near the window in the back of the navy blue classroom, while my desk faced the board. I turned my head to the window and instead of paying attention to the subject at hand I would think. The world outside was coverd in a white cold blanket looking untouched to my amazement. I thought about how soon summer would come and this hideous cold season would end. Well, until the point was Mrs. Mytro would finally dismiss us. The bell rang and I grabbed my blue bag and leave without a word.

Student's both younger and older than me crowd the hallways. Talking about there lives while I think of novels. I think about the human brain and its endless possibilities. I also think about many theories such as the concept of 'god' but, I always then ask myself why the principle choose the mustard yellow color for our hallways.

"Juliette, whats up ? " my best friend Molly ask's me while putting her free arm around my shoulder. She's wearing a pink pencil skirt and a black tank top with black heels making me cringe. Molly's famous for her looks and popularity, while I'm famous for....oh that's right nothing.

" Nothing just thinking, " I say quietly. She rolls her blue eyes at me making me feel a bit dumb.

" You my friend need less thinking and more drinking " She insists while sticking out her tongue. I shake my head reassuring her that I will not drink.

" such a prune, so what are you going to do tonight? " She asks while smirking making me nervous.

" Nothing why? " I asked tilting my head for the news.

" okay party tonight you me at Carter's party, plus Eddy's gonna be there " She whines at the end.

"No" I shake my head once again.

"Oh come on, Eddy's the only guy that truly likes me. Because either the guy that likes me wants me to blow them or their completely in love with you."

She says.

" Stop lying, Molly, i mean look at you and the. Look at me, I look like a complete nerd. No one likes me trusts me." I huff

" OMG!! Are you kidding me, I swear you are so stupid when it comes to guys or people, no scratch that human emotions!"She huffs clearly annoyed.

" Hey that's not true I can be very compassionate, anyways human emotions are said to be hormones, and okay " I sigh in defeat, I have nothing better to do anyway.

" First off EH? And second YEEEEEPP" She leaped on me making my balance fragile.

" Okay but I'm not drinking" I cringe at the thought.

She nods and leaves for her next class while I go to the library to skip. I have gym anyways and I cant do it cause I have severe asthma. Cause I cant do anything right, even my pathetic lungs won't work right. I walk in through the doors and the sweet librarian greets me and I quickly show her my green stolen pass. I earn a nod of approval from the old lady And throw the pass away. I make my way towards the window and grab one of my favorite books. 'Between shades of gray ' I open its pages to my favorite part where she's talking about the memories of her father. You see a girl in the time during world war II from Lithuania, is being taken away from her home by the Soviets. She talks about her experience since shes only with her mother and brother she tries to find her father through her art. She's strong and suffers beautifully throughout the book. It's like the more she paints the more people notice, all the way in Siberia she sends words through her art that only her father would know.

" Juliette ?" As I look up from the book and blue eyes instantly assault me.

" Oh hey Max whats up?" I squeak.

" Don't hey me, you're supposed to be in class." He whispers a bit loudly.

"What! You know I can't do P.E. so I might as well skip " I shrug at the student body president.

" Fine " He sighs closing his bright eyes.

" So what are you up to? " He asks kindly, as his laser blue eyes open.

" Just reading " I shrug at my childhood friend.

"About? " He arches up an eyebrow.

" World War II, " I say softly.

" May I see? " He says grabbing the book gently from my hands. I nod in return and grab myself another book this time its Hallucinations by Oliver Sacks.

" Tell me about this book, " He says softly examining the cover of a closed eye with snow on its eyelashes. I nod and tell him. I even tell him the ending, and that's how I spent last period until The bell rings in my ears. throughout the whole time, I am explaining to Max his intense stare makes me nervous not many people pay that much attention to me other than Max. I say goodbye to the max and walk to my locker. I grab my stuff and walk out the building full of student's screaming and playing cause its Friday. I walk home while listening to my music and greet my dad and tell him about the party and he nods yes. My father is a very stoic man, he's quiet for the most part. He's bald and tall with strong arms and kind wrinkles around his warm brown eyes, he's my absolute favorite person.

" Just be home by 1:00 okay?" His voice kind.

I nod and run upstairs. I open my bedroom my door and lay out my black skin tight jeans and my navy blue hoodie. I take a shower and brush my blond hair into a ponytail, and put on mascara and lipgloss. I'm thinking of changing the color of this room to a nice turquoise but my thoughts are interrupted by my phone ringing.

" Hey I'm outside " Molly's voice squeaks on my phone. I put on my vans and walk out of my house. I see Molly's older brother Max driving in his black porch.

Molly's in the back smiling and waving towards me. I jump in the front seat and Max smiles at me and Molly kicks my seat.

" I'm gonna get so high so be sober Max" she yells.

" Why are you telling me this Mol I mean I'm supposed to protect you from this stuff" he sighs.

" No, you're supposed to cover for me " She whines, while her poor brother shakes his head.

" Molly stop " I sigh at my best friend.

"Oh come on Julie don't be such a nerd" she giggles.

" Max take care of her " I shake my head in defeat.

He nods.

Molly puts queen's somebody to love throughout out the car and we all scream to the lyrics.

We past through lights and stop signs and I can hear Molly and Max I just decide against to joining in their conversation. I look out the window and look at the sky and I wonder about everything, about my book and about how underappreciated it is.

"Hey, have you told Julie yet about your crush on her?"Molly's voice is the only thing ringing in my ears.

"Molly!" he yells at her and I turn away and act as if I didn't hear anything but my friends know me their not stupid, well not completely.

Then when we finally arrive I can hear Molly screech at the houses humongous size. I step out of the car and Carter waves at Max then gives me and Molly a Hug each and tells us quote 

" mi casa es su casa " I roll my eyes and walk in, the smell of vodka and weed fills my nostrils. I cringe in disgust.

" Juliette tonight we have fun," Molly says in her bubbly voice, and I can already feel my migraines rising.

I only hope I make it through tonight without drama or any trouble I think to my self. As I step into the large group of kids dancing.

I walk to the kitchen and go through carters fridge. All I see is soda so I shrug at my own thoughts, and grab a blue plastic cup and pour some coca cola in it.

" Juliette? " I recognize his voice soft low and crisp like the night air.

I turn around praying that the sweet boy that I'm in love with is not the one behind me.

HEY, GUYS, THIS IS MY FIRST CHAPTER HOPED YOU LIKE IT! PLEASE FAVORITE IF YOU LIKED IT. DONT WORRY ILLi STILL BE UPDATING THE MENTAL WAR SOON

ANYWAYS YOU GUYS SHOULD REALLY READ BETWEEN SHADES OF GRAY BY RUTA SEPETYS