Tears Of Suicide

My Sadness

My heart is filled with sadness.

It's as cold as the winter winds.

It turned black,

After he left me.

After that I've never been the same.

I've tried everything to end my life.

I've tried a knife.

I've tried a gun.

I've tried a razor blade.

But I don't have the guts.

Why is it so hard?

People tell me my life was meant to be trashed out.

And I agree.

So why is it so hard?

He must have left me for some reason.

But what?

What could have made him leave?

Why did he hurt me?

Why?

I don't know,

And probably won't ever know.

All I do know is that my heart and soul are filled with,

Sadness.