Moments

Wounds

Heres the next Chapter! Enjoy!

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I whipped my head around to see who had frightened me, the guy I had been dreading most, I let out a whimper. “Carla?…” Josh said quietly, “My god are you ok?” he had obviously seen my mascara stained eyes. I didn’t reply, instead I just put my head in my hands, a few tears escaping my eyes. He put his arm around my waist, obviously trying to comfort me. Which made me want to cry even more, but I just stayed there silently, head in hands. My legs felt so heavy against the ground, and I didn’t have the strength to lift them. He leaned closer to me, and pulled me against his chest.

“Carla?” he whispered quietly. I couldn’t find my voice to reply.

 “Please talk to me Carla, I don’t understand what I’ve done.” He continued. That set me off the wall, I jumped up and faced him, his expression turned shocked.

“You can seriously tell me you don’t know?” I blurted out, without thinking, tears escaping my eyes. “Look, I’m sorry.” He admitted, looking me in the eyes, slightly. I took a deep breath.

“Sorry is just a word, and it doesn’t count for anything.” I snapped nastily. he stood up, looking me in the eyes, as if he could see into my soul, stepping closer to me. His hand lingered across my face, wiping my tears.

“You’re so beautiful.” He whispered. At this point I was in my own world, I do that when I’m mad, I just go into my own world… kind of. He stepped closer and pulled my chin up so I could look into his eyes. He stepped closer so that our lips were almost touching, taking a breath before he pressed his lips against mine. 

After five seconds I actually noticed what was going on. “What the hell?” I almost yelled, pulling away from him fast. “Don’t tell me you didn’t feel that?” He said with a smirk on his face.

 My face went red. “I Felt NOTHING, Leave me alone you jerk!” I yelled this time, tears escaping my eyes. I started running, I don’t know where, I just had to get away from here.

I ran through the school grounds, I would surely get a detention for this, but I didn’t care, I just had to run and get away. Luckily there was a forest around my school, I ran deeper into the forest sitting down on one of the logs. It was peaceful here, I could gather all my thoughts and make sense of the situation. Josh had kissed me, but why? He didn’t love me, this all made no sense. I started singing again..

Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,

And I held your hand through all of these years,

But you still have,

All of me.

Tears were rolling down my cheeks heavily , I continued singing.

You used to captivate me,

By your resonating light,

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind,

Your face it haunts,

My once pleasant dreams,

Your voice it chased away,

All the sanity in me,

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase..

 I took an unsteady breath.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along,

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears,

And I held your hand through all of these years,

But you still have,

All of me…

I could hear several voices calling my name. I didn’t want anyone to see my like this. I started to walk deeper into the forest, the smell of the earthy trees comforting me. I kept walking until my legs were so tired, that they would collapse. I sat down on the damp ground, pulling my legs close to my chest. It was the middle of summer, how could it be this cold? I silenced my breathing, and laid back into the soil, closing my eyes.

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Sorry its not that long! Next chappys gonna be super long though! comment below.

-Diamonders4lyf