Does anyone know
how I feel?
Feeling so alone
and so empty.
My eyes are blank and my smile is fake.
You can't just read me.
You just have to know me.
The tears that escape me.
As I remember all the things
that went wrong
or what it could of been like.
On the outside is a smile,
on the inside I feel so dead to the world.
As if I'm invisible,
not worth knowing, useless and pointless.
I lay awake for hours on end
wishing everything away.
Why me?
Why do I have to suffer
for someone else's stupidity?
What am I to you?
Someone you can toy around with?
Someone you can hurt?
Well guess what.
I'm done!
I just want to disappear
and cry
like squirting blood.
Why is it I can bleed to death,
but I can't cry to death?
I'm trying so hard
to gain control
over what was once mine.
My life
I feel like I'm better off dead.
Better not existing.
Better off without love.
