Believer

I Hate You, I Love You

Sonic*

I wanted to throw a brick at this kid. I mean he thinks he's really something! I'm in bed reading a book and see Shadow walking into our room. I was going to say something but he's eyes were red and he walked into our bedroom and locked the door. I sat my book down and walked to the bath room.

Sonic: Shadow are you ok?

He didn't say anything. I tried opening the door and for some reason I thought the door would magical open when I tried to open it.

Sonic: Shadow open up now!

He slowly open the door

Shadow: what?

Sonic: What happen?

Shadow: I can't go to the bathroom in peace?

Sonic: jeez at least I'm not yelling at you about earlier

He rolled his eyes and slammed the bathroom door. I jumped a little

Sonic: SHADOW OPEN THIS DOOR NOW!

I heard water and I knew he was about to take a shower. I tighten my fist and walked back to "our" bed, but i heard Shadow phone buzz. I looked at the bathroom door and then grab Shadow phone.

Sonic: Bella??

He's going to a club with a girl. I decided to check his messages and almost all his contacts were girls. I felt my heart slowly cracking and I decided to check his gallery. My eyes widen when I see him kissing girls or partying. It been only a week here and he's doing this. I put his phone back and felt tears running down my cheeks. I heard the door open and when I looked up Shadow was staring right at me. He was wearing a black shirt with black ripped jeans and a leather jacket. He open his mouth but he didn't say anything like something was blocking his answers. He took one step towards me and I ran out that room and to our studio room aka our basement. I saw Amy sitting down playing with our brand new technology. I wiped my tears away fast.

Sonic: Hey Amy

She turned around and smiled.

Amy: Hey Sonic....Is something wrong?

I smiled  a little

Sonic: I guess I'm still home sick...

She stared at me and she sighed.

Amy: I know something wrong. Go inside the room and sing your problems away, it works for me sometimes

Sonic: Amy I-

Amy: Go

I sighed and walked inside the "Studio" room and put on my headphones.

*Sonic*

Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need youI hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be herI miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this real out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I nevermind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If u wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go
I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this songI hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be herAll alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She's the only thing you've ever seen
How is it you'll never notice
That you are slowly killing meI hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to but I can't put nobody else above you
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

I never realizing I crying and slowly wiped the tears away.

Amy: That was depressing, you wanna talk about it

I sighed and started telling her what Shadow been doing not knowing Shadow was there listening to everything.

Amy: Jeez Shadow changed once he found out Silver played him.

Sonic: you think but he need to learn to let things go

Amy: It's hard letting something go when you care about it so much

I knew she was right but i wish he would just forget.

Amy: maybe you should talk to him when he comes back from the club

Sonic: alright....hey can I listening to the song?

She smiled and gave me a single to come over. I started listening to my voice and Amy and I were laughing. Amy leaned her head on my shoulders and i sort of smile while Shadow fist tighten.