My Dear, My Heart, My Love, My Pierrot

I remember the promise we had made under this aged tree, I hope that you too, still recall.

I lay my ribbon here so you can remember me until the end of time, perhaps one day you will return to find it, so that it may lead you to me, to be together once again.

This place holds my first memory of and with you, my dear Pierrot.

You found me here weeping with sinful tears as you helped me to regain my smile once more, you told me that it's alright.

Till this day I still only find myself smiling when I think of you…

I always felt broken and miserable that you would never in fact want to be with me because of that cruel man keeping us apart, you noticed my abandoned heart constantly and every time would mend it, to allow me to smile once again.

You whispered to me that it's alright- however were you crying also?

Some how you knew that this day would arrive- I wasn't prepared and I despise the thought that you would tell a lie and keep this a secret from me.

I held you in my arms as you exhale your final breaths and tell me your goodbyes.

You slide your hand upon my cheek, your touch is so warm and gentle.

I became uneasy as your hands slips away and your touch begins to fade, I became weak in the knees and started to shake uncontrollably with fear as I begin to cry over you.

My vision becomes blurry as my silk blue tears fall across your face as you tell me that it's alright, yet you were crying also..

You held my hand as you began to cry even more to tell me your final goodbye.

[It's alright, for you're my one and only love…]

My heart stops as you fade away from my grasp.

Slowly walking to the place where we first met and made a promise to each oth-

I remember that I suddenly collapsed by our promised tree, I don't remember much after that..

A single day passes by until I wake up and realize that a day without you is just so unfair, I can't smile- I can't speak or think, I can't stop…

I remain staring into this beautiful sky- overflowing with fiery yet subtle azure colors, the skies seem almost furious yet content- I wonder if you can see me from up there, I wonder if you can see what my intentions are.

I scream in this voiceless place as I realize that you feel so far away.

I can't stop crying, I just want to see you- to see you once more…

I keep searching for you by this old tree in hopes that you'll be standing behind me, yet I know that you have already vanished and departed.

I can't go on like this, in my colorless and lightless world- I give in and surrender to my empty heart.

[It's alright, I've already lost everything my heart used to love and care for.] I whisper to this beautiful sky beyond me as I let go and fall off this endless cliff nearby our old tree.

My love, My dear, My Pierrot, My heart- silently beats for you as I too, vanish from this world to be with you, forever…

My beloved Pierrot I too, love only you.