Violence Is The Key

Crash

While I had been talking to myself I had managed to put a wall up and block out the memories, but when I saw seven guys standing near me, it made my heart race as there going to be asking questions that I not only don't want to answer, but can't.

My breathing becomes ragged and uneven, my palms become clammy. I clutch my head with my hands, then began rocking back and forward again as they push through, I had no control, they wanted to push through and I couldn't help it, they had knocked down my wall and captured my mind.

"Just join, you pathetic bitch." Nick pinches the bridge of him nose, tilts his head back and then sighs. He is becoming agitated that I keep refusing. I've been here for 5 days and every day he'd come into the concrete room, torture, watch me suffer, watch me cry, watch me beg for him to stop and each time he'd ask me if I'm going to join his gang and each time I'd say no.

"N-No. I never will so either let me go or kill me." I bark out, he was pissing me of, all he's done is torture me until I pass out then leave.

A deep fake chuckle left his lips when he spoke up "You will join one way or another, if I have to kill everyone you know just to make you join then I will." he sounded so positive with his words that it scared to me my core. "Now were going to have some fun."

Then another one came.

I cock the gun and bring it up, I aim it at my family member. Taking three deep breaths to relax and let my hands stop shaking. Oh my god I'm gonna pass out. I look around the room once more and could see Nick with a smile on his face and his eyes showing joy and entertainment.

My parents are shaking uncontrollably from being petrified. I look into my victims eyes for a second, instantly regretting it as it made me feel ten times worse, the plea in their eyes to stop, but how could I? I can't let my whole family die.

I close my eyes and pull the trigger. The bang from the gun making everyone jolt from the sudden noise. Opening my eyes, I see my victims face grow pale and their body not moving anymore, and how I watch their eyes roll the back of their head.

I drop the gun, collapse on the floor because my legs give in, I am sobbing and shaking while clapping and laughs mix in with my sobs. One thought runs through my mind and that is 'I just killed my mum.'

And then another.

"I cant stay with you. We need to go separate ways. I just put everyone in danger because of my mess." I emphasise the 'my'. I look up to him with my blurred vision, his face his blooded, pale, he's got bags under his eyes, he's crying and its all my fault.

"It wasn't your fault, Gem. You didn't know it was going to happen." He takes his thumb and runs it under my eyes of clear away to fallen tears. He gives me a weak smile before placing a kiss on my forehead and hugging me tightly.

"It was my fault. I have to leave you. I'm so so sorry, Lucy." The salty taste returns into my mouth as more tears stream own my face.

"You do what you gotta do, it's always been about you. Just don't drag me into your life then anymore, okay? Not after you're abandoning me." He turns on his feet and limps away, ignoring my cries.

"Luke!" I yell, but it doesn't make him stop, he just carries on walking down the dark cluttered alley until he gets swallowed by the darkness . After standing their for a few minutes in my misery and guilt I move and turn the opposite way to somewhere and anywhere.

"Crystal, look at me. Follow my voice." Jakes voice broke through my memories and drags me back. I let my hands fall off my head and onto my knees again.