broken || hayley leblanc (on hold)

goodbye

~hayley leblanc~

october 1st, 2015

you know, this morning when i woke up, i thought it would be a normal day. i would get up. get ready. maybe have some cereal. go to gym. you know, the usual.

but what i didn't expect was for my mom to rush into the gym, pick my little seven year old body, and rush right out of the door. no words. just worry, stress, and sorrow sprawled across her face.

my mom drove me down the unfamiliar path to wherever we were going, tears rushing down her red and blotchy cheeks. i didn't ask any questions because i was scared for whatever was to come next. i thought something might have happened that could change my life forever.

when i felt car park, i looked up from the floor. i peeked out the window to see the words "baltimore hospital" on a building. that's when i started to get extremely anxious.

"m-mommy? why are w-we at the hospital?" i stuttered out.

"well..." she hesitated for a second. "caleb isn't okay." that's all that i got from her.

before i knew it, i was rushed into room 7. i saw my older brother's nearly lifeless body peacefully rested on the hospital bed. he was unconscious.

annie was in the corner of the room, sobbing. her hair in a messy bun. she looked a mess. my dad on the other hand was trying to stay strong for our family. but, even my seven year old self could tell that he was damaged on the inside.

and then it happened.

i was sitting in the chair next to caleb's bed. his hand was in mine, and i was praying. praying that everything would be alright. praying that this was all a dream. praying that he would make it.

but, i guess my prayers weren't enough. the monitor beeped that long, heartbreaking beep.

he was gone.

goodbye, bubba.

march 6, 2023

yesterday, my older sister came home from school, crying. bawling. sobbing. i asked her what happened. but, of course, she didn't reply.

one year ago, annie was diagnosed with depression. you see, she was bullied in school. these girls: sophia, nadia, and ruby would tease her everyday. it was cruel. brutal. monstrous.

she didn't eat last night. i heard her cry herself to sleep in the room next to me.

the next morning, i woke up to something strange. i didn't hear annie's sobs. instead, i heard my parents' sobs. they were coming from annie's bathroom.

no. please let her be okay. i can't lose another sibling.

i walk to her bathroom and see something that i never wanted to see. annie's lifeless body in the bathtub. her pajamas were still on, she was drowning in her own pool of blood. a sharp, bloody knife was rested next to her in the bathtub..

why?

my tears starting rushing in. on the toilet seat, i found a note in annie's shaking handwriting. i picked it up and cautiously read it.

dear family,

i'm sorry. yes, i killed myself. i tried to be happy, trust me, and this was my last solution.

the bullying was getting worse and worse. earlier this week, they used their usual slurs, but this time, they brought caleb into the conversation.

please don't be upset. i deserved this. i'm an atrocious, fat little brat.

i'm finally gonna see bubba. after eight years, i'm finally gonna see him.

i love you all and i will miss you. please tell kenzie and hayden the same. once again, i'm sorry and goodbye.

love,
anns

my sister. my last sibling. she too was gone. i lost them both.

goodbye, banannie

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615 words.