I Will Find You (Discontinued)

Periwinkle

(Lorelai's POV)(What this is actually happening?)
Dear Diary,(how cliche)

Ever since Nate has been told the news, he has changed. I don't know how to describe it but he has.

He's been angrier, jumpier, and terrified. I want this all just to end, I wish this never happened. I wish that it was me that was told this. I want it to be me. It's so unfair!

I know I have no right to complain but it practically kills me seeing him like this. A part of me has already died, but that was a long time ago.

I won't explain, but just know, that true emotion is way more than what meets the eye.

Nate told me that he sees me as perfect. But I'm not, if someone is then he definitely is. He is so brave, even when all of this is happening. He hasn't tried to quit.

He will never know what it's like to eat so much that you make yourself sick. He will never know how much of a hypocrite I am when I tell him not to wear contacts, when I desperately want to hide my eyes. I will keep it that way. If I'm an angel, than I'm a fallen one.

I'm not popular, I don't have any real friends, none that I can tell all this to. I can't tell my parents, they are already starting to act nervous whenever Nate walks into the room. Can't imagine what they would be like if I told them what is going on with me.

Everyone that knows our situation is distancing themselves from Nate. It has definitely taken a toll on him.

I tried to ask him what it was like, but he refused to tell me, so I cornered him. I saw pure panic and frustration when he noticed he was trapped. I thought I saw his eyes glow a brighter red, but it must have just been the light.

Advice, never trap someone who has a small piece of a demon's soul in them. Big mistake on my part. Now I have a black eye from him pushing me away a little to hard. Long story short, he pushed me away, I fell and smacked the side of my face on our coffee table.

He felt guilty and I told him it was okay. But not because it wasn't painful, because it was. But he still was my baby brother. He felt bad, he didn't turn all evil on me, he was actually good and took care of me.

That last small bit of hope is what I'm clinging onto but it's slowly diminishing. If it's gone, then I know I will be gone, because there is no life without my baby brother beside me, through it all.

I shall fight with him through it all, never ceasing. He will be brought back to who he once was before all this.

Back then he would smile whenever I said hello or teased him. Now he just looks so defeated, tired, and extremely worried, knowing that at any time Thorin could come and take back his soul. We are all worried about that, but it has made this family stronger, and we'll be damned if we don't save Nate.

I will get my baby brother back, even if it kills me.

- Lorelai

Now we get to see more into Lorelai's character. Sorry if this is going incredibly slow, the story will pick up in a chapter or two. Hopefully you stick for the ride. Does anyone read these? If so comment bananas.

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