I get it, I really do. I'm allowed to call you skinny, so why aren't you allowed to call me fat? Go ahead, do it then. Call me fat. Call me the fattest, ugliest, worthless, most deformed mistake to ever cross your path. Say it right to my face, in front of everyone. Scream it so loud people all over the world can know just how disgusting I truly am. Write it in a letter and send it off to the heaven's above us so they are informed to deny my access through those golden gates when it's my time to go.
I know I'm fat, I've known it my whole life. Two hundred and twenty one pounds doesn't walk through the halls unnoticed. People don't just fly by me without taking a second or even third glance. They don't look past the way my stomach bounces when I take each step or how my thighs show cellulite even through my sweatpants. That's all they talk about, that's all they have talked about and that's all they ever will talk about.
Me.
Me and my big, fat, disgusting body. Me and my frizzy, black hair that I can't do a single thing with because it's exactly like wire. Me and my acne filled face paired with a double, maybe even triple, chin. Me and my blind-as-a-bat vision that only my stupid, rectangular glasses can fix. Me and my judgmental parents who only see me as the daughter who ruins their perfect reputation. Me and my sadness, low self esteem and loneliness that will only worsen more and more after each and every day I'm called yet another name.
Because it would take a blind person to even be friends with me, let alone love me.
I've gotten so many people asking me to make another fanfic about loving yourself and getting through hard times so here it is! I know I have another fanfic on the go but I couldn't resist tbh ilyasm xx tweet me what you think the idea and any predictions you have @effyouniall
